so i just took time to meditate and talk to aug. that helped i also took time to work out somemore...well excpt for my arms cause i cant move my righ shoulder at all. its just about dead at my side i think that accident did more damage then i realize. its somthing that should probably be addressed. i also talked to steve and what he had to say was ( Read more... )

one more realization....i actually look kinda hott right now...

also today the most random person checked to see if i was ok....hmmm i thought she hated me now well she apparently didnt or she woudlant haves asked in seminar....oh well nice to know people wonna make sure iam ok...but iam gonna be a trooper and carry on...

so today was a learning excperiance...iam slowly but surely realizing how i must change to make myself happy. I know i contributed factors to all that even if i didnt mean to i did. so what do i do hear? learn from it. i ran a fast practice of 6 laps and back and forth from auto room to band hall 4 times then i went to work. while i was there we ( Read more... )

i took a hit now ( Read more... )

The Spirit Room: I'd Rather Be In Love ( Read more... )

ok so i instructed the class for the 3rd time today it was really cool to get to pass my knowldege on. seeing sensi was great. i won 10 out of 15 fights only losing to sensi....5 times....yah yah i know i shoudant even have tried...ive realized somthing of late...i fight with such passion that i feel like iam completly at peace with my body it ( Read more... )

this is hurting us both i am certian of that. i know well be together again...but its gonna be some time cause we both have self issues to work out. iam out at the dojo right now using sensis computer cause after talking about this with him things are gonna be a little more a little eaisier to swallow...its funny he kinda reminds me of yoda with ( Read more... )

still no sleep for the weary of heart. i have to go to work soon maybe that will help get my mind of things. my cell should be on if u need me but most likely i wont be so itll just be on. i just finished working out for about an hour but i feel totally energized...the pain is still there it dosent go away...i guess thats what happens when ur ( Read more... )

i tried to sleep last night...it didnt happen i cant stop thinking of her. this hurts pure and simple it hurts. i dont know what to do with myself right now. ive got advice from friends that i dont want to listen to cause of what it would mean. and if things go a certain way that would happen anyways...i dunno...iam gonna go try and lay down again ( Read more... )