i want to bleach my hair for prom,
but i don't know shit about bleaching hair.

my hair is dyed black with permantent hair dye.
i want it light brown/blonde colour.

so if anybody knows anything or knows people who know anything,
tell me about it?

i'm kinda in a bind,
it being less than a week to prom and all.

thanks

my head hurts....

optimism is stupid.
and i will kick anyone who leaves even a remotely optimistic comment.

expenses add up too quickly.
&
i don't wanna grow up.

this morning i was bummed and wanting to go to prom [it might be my last year after all!] and by the end of the day i was going to 2 different proms and shopping for dresses with my friends ( Read more... )

i might be getting a job soon. (yay!)

i hate people.
i really hate people.
i really do.

becca, i love you. i want to pound that person till they're bruised and bleeding.
i hope you know that.
i really do.

as for the rest of you, with a few (and when i say few i mean few) exceptions, fuck off and goodnight!

we like the moon!
cause it is close to us!
we like spoons!
you can eat soup with them!
and the forks!
are really use-less!
un-less the soup!
has many vegtables!

i wish i was 5 again.
actually, no
i hated being 5.
i was the most angry and depressed little 5 year old ever.

i wish i was a normal 5 year old.
i just wish things were simplier!

"This is how bad life can get.
Kill me.
I grab the steering wheel and crank us back into traffic.
Now.
Prepare to evacuate soul.
Now.
The mechanic wresteles the wheel toward the ditch, and I wrestle to fucking die."

it really was so much better than the movie...

(fight club ~for those who didn't pick up on it)

i have ressurected my faith in complete and utter destruction.

and i couldn't be happier! :D

'only after we lose everything, are we free to do anything.'

so it sucks right now.
it sucks real bad right now.

but what of the future?
who knows.
and i find that very comforting.

ask questions and die.
okie?
alright.

just chill.

dude the mood box isn't big enough for my mood!

MOOD: amused with my own seemingly miserable exsitance. (this is not emo)

alright i'm done.
byebye.