you're selfish and a waste of space

[storiesforboys]

i wish i were thinner. and not liked by only boys who already have girlfriends and say things like "if i weren't with her, i'd be with you right now."

that makes me feel so much better, definitely.
it'd be so much better if you just kept your mouth shut altogether, thank you.

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[_transistor]

i really hear you on that one.

[storiesforboys]

really sucks, doesn't it. :\

[_transistor]

sure does, sweetheart.

[geekybeeny]

werd. I wish I was prettier, and thinner and guys would like me in general.. but yeah.. i agree.

[storiesforboys]

generally, i've been able to accept myself the way i look, even though i know i'm not very pretty or as thin as i used to be.
but it doesn't mean i'm always okay with it, like right now. oh well, c'est la vie, i guess.

[geekybeeny]

True
But generally we all try to pick ourselves apart. As girls.. as huamans. We try to find our flaws and pick them until we can no longer pick them and we end up hurting ourselves by doing it. No one can ever reach such a state of perfection in which they are truelly happy with them selves, and if they have; Power to them.

[storiesforboys]

AGREED

i see it all the time, all of my girl friends are completely beautiful, but they don't ever believe it, and we're all always finding things wrong with ourselves. i don't think i've ever met a girl who's truly happy they way she is, and even then society considers girls with too much self-confidence and esteem to be bitches. and so we just get put down again.

[confusionisnext]

i wish i were thinner. and not liked by only boys who already have girlfriends and say things like "if i weren't with her, i'd be with you right now."

That's the story of my life right there darling <333333

[storiesforboys]

the story of my life is that one chapter, repeated over and over and over, just change the names each time. it's happened to me too much, and i've made huge mistakes because of it.

cos you realize that if you decide to be with them, etc, they could turn around and say the exact same things to someone else. and they usually do.

but all the good times we'll be having in nyc will help us forget all this nonsense, promise <333

[confusionisnext]

There was just that one time for me but god, did I make quite the ass out of myself for it. The things that were said are being said right now to someone that they're not "in love with." The best is when they make it out to be that they were just trying to make you happy by going through with it.

This Fall - bitches better watch out <33333333

[storiesforboys]

trying to make us happy? BULLSHITTTTTTT.
s'ok though, i'm a major believer in "what goes around comes around", and i can't wait to see what happens to these boys when it finally comes around to them.

[bluasylum]

remember those books that you would read so far, and it would say "If you want Jane to do this, turn to page 45. If you want Jane to do that, turn to page 59."? Well, my life is like that. Except God likes to cheat, like we all did back then, and repeat parts of my life, and pick different ways to f-ck it up. He never picks the good ones. Instead, he makes this Jane run into walls, jump into bottomless pits, and fall down endless staircases.

Bastard.

PS you are skinny. and very pretty. I'm the fat bitch guys gag at the sight of. remember?

[storiesforboys]

no no you aren't! you're not fat or ugly, you're beautiful, and i mean that. i just don't think we'll ever be happy the way we are, that's how society's raised us to think unfortunately.

i hope you feel better, i hope we both do. i'm calling you tomorrow night, i promise. just remember, in a few months life as we know it right now will be over, and it will be like a brand new book with new choices and pages to turn. and it WILL be better, i promise.

i'm gonna miss not hanging out with you next week darling, but i think being out in the warm san diego sun will do you some good. <3

[bluasylum]

Sweetness. I'm packing tomorrow, and just leaving out clothes for Thursday and Friday. Whatever I wear Friday during the day, I'm wearing on the plane. I have to go and buy some stuff too, like sun tan lotion, so I dont fry, haha.

I think it will do me some real good being away from here. And it will do some others ::cough:: Ryan ::cough:: some good too. I won't be here, to call, to email, to talk to. We'll see what happens.

Luv ya darling, I'll make sure my phone is by my side tomorrow.

[tinykitten333]

he's not worth it. you're beautiful.

[storiesforboys]

you're right, i know it in my head and i tell myself, he's not worth it. it has disaster written all over it, i can't make this kind of mistake again.

i love you. <3

[tinykitten333]

kisses <3 <3 <3