-
New Hair!
And last but not least, a friend of Miriam's (and mine) helped me (well really, she did the whole process) dye my hair yesterday. It's only the second time I've done it: my hair has always been deeply important to me, and doing things to it like that has been scary.
The first time, I asked the stylist to match my natural color. This time, I decided ( Read more... ) -
Seeking Companionship
And I wrote an update for my seeking companionship filter!
I haven't said too much here, in part because I was kind of a mess since the election and wasn't doing a lot of seeking. But my head's been a bit more together and I am not going to let anxiety take any more of my life away than I have to. I've done enough of that!
So I'm still kind of ( Read more... ) -
Euphoria vs Dysphoria
I find it a little hard to keep up here because writing everything up for Facebook, and then copying it here and to Livejournal manually, takes time, and I don't always do it at the same time even though I keep wanting to. At one point, I was thinking about learning enough Javascript to write something that will automate this for me, but I didn't ( Read more... ) -
Emotional Dysregulation
My emotions have been yoyoing a lot lately, sometimes by the hour. On the downswings, lying down in a dark place and removing stimulation helps, so I've been trying to do that instead of doomscrolling on my computer, or freezing in place because I don't have capacity to make decisions about what I should do next. It's not very fun. Talking with ( Read more... ) -
First Local Gender Clinic Visit
On the day after my birthday, I went out to my appointment at the gender clinic here in Hamilton and, I dunno, I just thought I looked kind of nice?
The doctor I saw was fabulous. As I thought, the clinic here doesn't offer family doctor services. She wasn't sure if the one in Milton does: if not, I'll just keep going to the Hamilton one and wait ( Read more... ) -
General Update
I self-medicate with food, and I've been having a really hard time not stuffing myself to the point of real pain sometimes. I've been trying to be more active and bike more and lose weight for a long time, and I was getting somewhere this past spring and summer, but now, I don't know. I don't really know how to deal with what's going on in the US.
( Read more... ) -
Transition Tuesday
Hey, is it transition Tuesday time? I don't know if I've actually done one of these, but I happened to see an old picture of mine and think it would be interesting to match it up with one from a week ago.
First, me in the Fall of 2015, looking, I think, very much like the leftist, vocally car-free, grad student in human geography that I was. I was ( Read more... ) -
Bedframe, Election
Why do I have all the fasteners for the furniture I disassembled *except* the bed frame? Now I have all these pieces of bedframe sitting around and nowhere to put them because they weren't going to be taking up space.
I'm so tired of moving. Including places I lived when I was a little girl, this is the 18th place I've lived. I'd really like to ( Read more... ) -
Freezer, the Election
The people who encourage everyone to vote, no matter who for are well-intentioned, but still supporting fascism. I want everyone voting for Kamala Harris to get out and vote. I hope everyone else has their cars break down or they get lost on the way to the polls or something.
My home country may or may not be about to vote a party into power that ( Read more... ) -
Still Settling In - Until We Move Again
I loaded and unloaded a king bed frame, a two seat sofa, a TV stand, and a bunch of miscellany, so I'm pretty wiped. But after I rest, I'm going to get the bed frame put back together so I'm not sleeping on a mattress on the floor anymore. Once, I was debating whether it was worth bringing the frame down into the basement only to take it back out ( Read more... )