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[storythusfar]

She tells me I am sick. Or rather, that she doesn't know for sure but all the questions and more importantly, all of the answers, point in the right direction. At first, I am scared, then immediately relieved. There is a name for this, there is name for what I am feeling. What I am thinking, what I think about. Then I am reeling, comparing this to

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[supergirl147]

I'm not drawing lines, and I'm sorry that came out how it did. I really truely didn't mean it how it came out. I don't intend this year to be like freshman year for you. Things like the green and white matter exactly as much as I want them to, and I am not Johanna or Shayna. I feel awkward now and I don't know what to do about it. I'm sorry.

[storythusfar]

It's okay. You feel like I attacked you, I feel like you attacked me. But if I can't go to you when there's a problem, the next person is Kara and well...You already got her. I felt cornered when two people asked me what I did when I don't think I really did anything except be defensive. Also, because Kara immediately listened to you and not BOTH of us was annoying. I am not blaming her, but just logically I didn't know who I was supposed to talk too. I felt trapped like I did the first two years. I was very upset about it, but I can't say it's stupid when it was really about something bigger- it always is. I know you think people don't listen to you, but for the most part they do. It's kinda weird to have you "coaching" us too, and you're a lot better at it then you think. I've been on your side since day one, and I always will be. You don't have to worry about me paying attention or listening to you because I will. I want to learn. I want this and you know that. Which gets to the second part. I was defensive because I couldn't

[eskimokrysses]

*hugs tightly*
I wish I could do more. Haven't a clue about any of this, I don't know about any of it...but I do know I don't like my bubbly Camie like this.
Even if the bubbly is a facade.

*hugs tighter*

[storythusfar]

don't worry, I'm still pretty bubbly. overly excited....that's actually part of the problem....but whatever.

I'm more excited for training. When do you have compliance?

[eskimokrysses]

I still huggle you. *huggles*
And I believe I'm signing up for the Sunday one. The soonest one. How's that? :-P

[ca_roline]

AJKLF. I would hold onto you if I could. Miles and miles.

[storythusfar]

I LOVE YOU.