Haru has returned, to say that I am relived is a gross understatement. However he seems somewhat nonchalent of the fact that certain people were worried to the point of hysteria about him. Perhaps he did not know this, or more likely, he doesnt want to make a "big deal" of the fact and simply wants to get back to some kind of normality. I cannot ( Read more... )

I feel like I should do something, what that something is, I have absolutely no idea. I hate feeling like this, so utterly helpless, like a child, I dont feel like a child and I never have ( Read more... )

Well white day was rather interesting. All of the fanclub girls were extremely dissapointed that Yuki was not at school today, which was rather amusing. I believe that this was an even better punishment for them than anything that I could do (so it must have been dreadful ( Read more... )

Well things have improved a little since my last entry. I have tried to be a little happier and I hope, nay think that its showing. I understand that I am not a naturally happy person at all (how much of an understatement is that?) but there is nothing to stop me from having "happy" moments (as Miji calls them) from time to time. Speaking of ( Read more... )

I feel a little better now. Only a little though. Why was I born like this? With these thoughts running through my mind. It is most disturbing. I just wish that theyed go away. But if they did go away, would I still be the same person? And if I wasnt the same person wopuld that be a good thing? I dont know anymore. I am really not looking ( Read more... )

Ive never been this happy in my life as not only do I have a friend who I can literally talk about anything to but that same person is now someone who I can share my life with. I really hope that things work out and I'm not a complete disapointment ( Read more... )

I'm very much looking forward to going up to the mountains this weekend. Tohru-chan should be accompianing me, which should be almost . . . . fun!! I dont know, I sometimes think that I dont quite know how to have fun, like I act like an old man. I do like the way that I am and I wouldnt change that for the world. I sometimes wonder if Ive ( Read more... )

Well christmas is over but everyone still seems in a very festive mood. I'm glad that I went to the Christmas party now as I seem to know everyone better and plus for . . . . other reasons. I dont know what is happening to me at all. Whenever I think about Momiji-kun I get this tingly sensation in my stomach. I have no idea if this is a ( Read more... )

I am feeling much better now and I think that the illness that everybody seems to have been getting has dissapeared. Momiji had to postpone our outing to the zoo until after the festive period but I think that this is better. I am looking forward to meeting his friend but also a little apprehensive as I have no idea what hes like although Momiji ( Read more... )

Not much has happened in the last two days. My illness seems to be wearing off much to my joy, and ive drunk so much herbal tea that i'm surprised that it hasnt started to seep from my ears . . . hmmmmmmmmm . . now that really would scare people, but it would be ever so messy ( Read more... )