following up on an comment conversation...

[strange_quark]

Why do I hate my body so much and suffer from so much appearance related insecurity? It is extremely irrational. I am literally under 5 pounds overweight and have respectable body fat/muscle mass ratios even if they're not athlete rock star proportions. The fact that I exercise a respectable amount doesn't ever mitigate my crazy, psycho

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[beeporama]

At least you are aware of it and admit to it!

When someone like you says something like this, I have two knee-jerk reactions in rapid succession. The immediate one is, but you are so hot. Then what quickly follows is, but more importantly, you should love yourself even if you were as ugly as sin. You're already aware of these things, but they bear repeating.

[strange_quark]

Yeah, but I wish I could stop doing it!!! It's such a waste of time. The formula, for me, for losing weight and getting closer to the 'ideal body' my stupid-brain is obsessed with is really simple: stop eating so many f***ing sweets. Either I do it and the pounds come off super fast, or I don't, and they don't. So it is so very silly to spend any more time on it. (And now, bringing neuroticism to a new level, I'm wasting more time stressing about the time I waste stressing about my lumpen body.)

Thanks for the compliment. For the record, I think you are too. :)

[beeporama]

I say the same thing about my anxiety (which I believe to be a clinical problem that I am currently managing with medication). I find myself getting extremely anxious about things that I consciously realize are "no big deal"-- my blood pressure rises, I feel sick, I obsess-- but as much as I tell myself "uh it really is okay if you arrive ten minutes late for your doctor's appointment" I can't stop freaking out until it's over.

Of course, as I said, I don't think you really need an "ideal" body anyway. I think you're a wonderful person just on the basis of being so intelligent and thoughtful and interesting.

[mmm_pi3]

such are the trials of being a woman. at least, as beeporama said, you realize your fears are irrational.

so go eat all the bloody sweets you want and be happy in your self-awareness! :D

[strange_quark]

I just ate a large number of brownies and half a box of cookies. A+!

I hope you're enjoying sweets too!!