I was incredibly stressed out all last week. I don't know what it was, but it was the bad kind where I look totally normal to the rest of the world yet feel this constant humming inside me, like my lungs rattle when I breathe. I don't even know what caused it. Damn ( Read more... )

Now and then you have to sit up in bed and wonder what the hell is happening in your life. My room is constantly in total darkness, the courtyard my window opens to offers nothing but that blue-grey light that makes any hour I wake up seem incredibly early, thus allowing me to sleep until 3 in the afternoon ( Read more... )

I lost my phone and I hate my life.
that is all.

I have decided to stop believing in the following:

God.
Love.
Having any say in my own personal safety.
Dr. Pepper.
Chicken.

I shall truly lament the loss of the last two.

Oh, and I shall also become a cloistered nun.

that is all,
Ela.

might swing into the midwest for the first week in january.
details need to be worked out.
will email or call the world once these are sorted and my phone card is recharged.

Spain continues to be so overwhelmingly...spanish.

I wish I had friends here this week. I need to go beyond this glorified acquaintance shit and no one is up to par. There's just something to be said for the people who watched you become an adult.

The problem with love is...I don't even know what the problem is other than it never goes smoothly ( Read more... )

impressive. still.


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I had a dream about being at my own funeral ( Read more... )

My homelife in spain is pretty odd. M'lady seems to trample on my ego more than any person I've ever met. I've never met anyone who so blatantly finds me physically offensive, and though she is incredibly kind 99.9% of the time, events such as those of the other night's lecture are absolute murder for my self-esteem. She made me fucking cry ( Read more... )