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The cloud has descended
I feel terrible, looking back at this journal, to see so much negative. Is there anything positive in me anymore? Some things have happened in the past week though that have made me broody...and that is not good. Hours of driving to Wisconsin on Friday, periods of silence where my head goes There ( Read more... ) -
Still alive, thoughts bouncing wildly around
Just when I thought I was doing better, I get a slap in the face. I felt like I was moving on, getting over it, looking forward to new things. Monday I received a certified mail letter. In it, a letter for each family member. Our family doctor has dumped us. Why? She is married to my ex boss ( Read more... ) -
No motivation
I just can't seem to get excited about Christmas this year. I don't want to decorate yet--my house already seems so cramped that I can't bear the thought of putting the tree up. Shopping has happened some, but I hate the thought of spending money when things are already so tight right now. I have no clue how we're going to do it all, this year ( Read more... ) -
Onward...
I'm still trying to surface from this funk, but I will admit I am loving all the time with my kids. Evenings have been much more pleasant because I'm not tired and overwhelmed with everything needing to be done at once.
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So this is what Day 1 looks like
My eyes are so swollen this morning--I look like I've been in a boxing ring. When I went to bed last night there was nothing left to distract me from this new reality, and the sobs were deep, crushing, and completely involuntary. It felt like my chest could cave in. I haven't eaten since yesterday at 10 till 4, and I don't want to. I am ( Read more... ) -
Ugh.
I told my supervisor last Friday that I needed to cut my schedule back four hours per week to accomodate an unforseen family business issue. Today, I no longer have a job. Guess I'll have lots of time to focus on that family business issue. I also think I must be the only stupid person in the world who would finish out the work day after being ( Read more... ) -
Angels among us
(I know this is late, but I haven't had the time to post these pics until today ( Read more... ) -
I will forever remember...
Happy Fourth Birthday to a special angel, Abby McCaskill. Jack, Janice, Kim, Julia, and Charlotte are in my thoughts and prayers today. I have been forever changed by her life and the love that is so tightly entertwined in her story. You are loved, and you are missed, sweet Abby girl. -
One of my worst fears is...
..being separated from my children in a disaster or time of crisis. Last Saturday was Caleb's and my 17th wedding anniversary, but we didn't celebrate because it was graduation weekend/Memorial Day weekend with all the ceremony and celebrating that comes with that. Friday's storms went around us but not by much--a friend's back windshield was ( Read more... )