I left Regis the same way I arrived. Abuptly and hesitantly. The same way I was thrown into the dorms last August was similar to the way I was spit back out. My entire life I had lived a certain existence. I had my own room, own bathroom, and was surrounded by familiarity but when I moved into the dorms my world was flipped upside down. It wasn't ( Read more... )

A few nights ago Meaghan and Jenny asked me if I wanted to live with her next year. I feel like I did in highschool when I would be invited to a big, raging, upperclassman party. I want to go, but at the same time my stomach is in knots and I'm nervous. Am I cool enough? Will I have fun or be left out? Will I get into trouble? Will I fit in? It ( Read more... )

I absolutely LOVE Fiona Apple. On Thursday night I had one of "those" nights, ya know the ones when nothing seems to go right? well I just went in my car turned up Fiona and eas literally screaming the lyrics..."this mind is body and this voice cannot be stiffled by your deviant ways." UGGGH, how are those not the most amazing lyrics? By themselves ( Read more... )

Since I began college my opinion of the opposite sex has gone down. I know that it is the harmony of nature that humans appear in two forms-male and female and that one without the other could not exist but...in college males seem so useless!!! They walk around most of the time drunk or high, apathetic towards everyone and everything...haunted by ( Read more... )

I'm in such a funk and nothing seems to take me out of it. I sit online for hours on day-checking facebook, myspace, and just being unproductive. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere and that I just float never really being understood. Most of the time I would rather be alone than go out just because no one can say the right thing to spark my ( Read more... )

drunk...again. Behind every drunk girl there is someone who wants to be loved someone who wants a kiss and someone to hold her. I miss being in love. I miss dreaming and longing for someone, I miss missing someone. I want to desperately call alex and remind him what tomorrow is, but maybe he doesn't remember. I told natalie tonight the WHOOOOLLLLE ( Read more... )

so yesterday was my 19th birthday, it was also the day that my fake ID said I was 21 so to celebrate me and half of the freshman class went to Sing Sing, a little bar downtown which I swear was made for college students. With it's quarter beer tuesdays I didn't have to pay for a drink all night long. After a beer and a half I was buzzed and after 3 ( Read more... )

I have learned more in college than I did in 12 years of school. I've changed for the better most definately and I feel smarter. I feel more knowledgeable and full of wisdom which is a change for me because usually I feel like a stuttering mess in most situations. Maybe I was lying to myself...I counted on my hand and I've gone back 5 times! 5 ( Read more... )

Well the College Edition of LIVEJOURNAL has arrived. It's under a whole new name...Sunflower_heart. Well that's the new LJ and I added a couple of you friends off the top of my head, but if I forgot someone just comment. Or you could comment on the new LJ, remember it's Sunflower_heart!

The world around me is changing and the scenery that was a constant for so long is about to be rearranged. My feelings aren't all of reluctance to the change, part of me is accepting and feels ready but another part know that there are sooo many unanswered questions. With all of my friends (minus Corey and Alex) gone away at school there isn't much ( Read more... )