let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.
let it go.

some days i feel like my heart is in a nutcracker and some days i could care less.
love or whatever relevant feelings are mental?  i can talk myself in or out of anything.

there's only one reason to keep me here..

 i'm fine.  everything is fine.

it's getting better.

it's not going to matter.

anxiety attack over nothing.  like ohh this is something i have to do.  it's not.  everythings great.  im so relieved.

there was no need to call.  there's email!

listening to a billion slow song possiblities for prom has put me in a strange mood.

it's a mood that makes me glad i'm with max.

i should make myself a mix of these songs for the car.  hahah.

soccer was amazinngg.

hat trick  =D

does not mean that i'm confused.

think what you want. 

and there was nothing.

i hated myself when i was with him.  he was the only thing that mattered to me.  everything else i would compromise to fit in with that.  he lowered myself esteem.  he made me feel like i didn't deserve better.

i definately deserved better.

i used to think people in my situation were stupid.  and that if they would've watched out, they wouldn't be hurt.  now i guess people are thinking im stupid.

its been so long, it doesn't matter anyways.

people change.  or maybe they were always this person, they just lost all of the good.