i feel like shit because i hate making people sad... but i have to do what is right for myself now... and i haven't done that in the past... but i still get that sick feeling in my stomach...

and so much shit is hitting the fan all at once. hard times are upon us. things could be worse... much worse. but things have to change... soon.

its so lame... but sometimes i just feel like i need to be held... its nothing sexual or anything... its more of just a physical need for contact... to lean on someone and have a set of arms encircle me every once in a while. it just seems like things suck right now. and i guess on some sub-conscious level i am lonely even though i am pretty ( Read more... )

like i said breifly last night... or this morning.... whichever you prefer to call it... bethie and i had a lovely time on our little road trip this weeekend ( Read more... )

i just got back from civil war days... bethie and i had a fabulous time actually... we did go to kdu and it was nice to see chip in particular... i will have to write about it later though because i feel totally loopy... so much stuff so fast... caffiene... dancing... driving for three hours... good times...

today was my mum's 47th birthday and labour day here as well... so no work ( Read more... )

HURRICANE KATRINA HELP ( Read more... )

the madness of a spinning world ( Read more... )

-left house this morning 7:45am. went to shell station. attempted to pump gas. took several minutes to get the pump started. went in station to ask if pump is broken... "no, they are all slow when someone is on pump seven." alrighty then. i went back out and continued pumping. got another couple of dollars worth. pump completely stops ( Read more... )

this was a nice weekend. i got to spend a lot of time with bethany and i realise now how much i missed her. yesterday we went back to richmond for a second time this weekend... (i needed a pair of nice jeans to wear to my job interview... last time i dressed way to formally)... after my mission at the mall was completed successfully, we ended up ( Read more... )

i never thought this thing would last through 20 entries when i started it up... but here we are... 350 deep and the better part of them are still public ( Read more... )