No one reads this and because of that, part of me feels like I can actually be honest here ( Read more... )

I hate when there's something lingering over your head, and yet... you can't get anything out. There's words and yet there is nothing that really says what's there ( Read more... )

I can't stand emotional rollercoasters. I can't stand looking into the mirror and wondering why I want to crawl out of my skin. I can't stand bursting into tears and being unable to control it. I can't stand being upset for no damn good reason ( Read more... )

We fell asleep outside on the grass. What time did we finally go back in the house? 2 am ( Read more... )

Right now?

I disgust me. Why do I always do this?

He deserves better.

I normally won't fill these out, but maybe it'll be good for me to think about. That, and Liz tagged me.

Name 10 things that bring you a moment of joy, and tag 5 friends to do the same.

*These are in no particular order

1. A whispered, "I love you."2. Bringing a smile to someone's face ( Read more... )

Life was better today.
I actually felt like I was working while at work. It's amazing how much better of a mood I'm left in because of it.

Now I'm exhausted and I have to study.
I think I'll end up taking a nap, though.

Study, study, study.

I hit my breaking point yesterday.

I can't. It's getting too hard. I'm worn out. I don't like not knowing.
I've spent this past week trying to be strong. No. Not anymore.

I'm afraid I'm going to break something. Myself, maybe. My relationship, maybe.

Depression?
Settling in.

I need to remember how to find words.

This past week... le sigh.

I don't like this new job. You know how there are things just not in you to do? This is one of those things. Some people enjoy this sort of thing. It just seems to drain me...

I hate emotions.

The thing that keeps coming to my mind is, "I wonder if he thought this way about her, too." I wonder if he said the things he says to me to her ( Read more... )