I'm Still Dealing
Yesterday was one of the strangest days of my life. I don't even know where to begin.
It started out fine. The birthday party for Wyatt went well. I only had to freeze the room once. After the party is when things got strange... er, normal for Sunday I suppose. A darklighter decided to stop by after the party. Turns out he was after Leo the whole time.
After a freak accident (which really wasn't) involving the hands of discontent, Leo and I ended up on the ghostly plane with the darklighter. And we didn't have our powers. There was a lot of running, fighting, crying... Leo was hurt, there was no one else around... He told me he still loves me. And then... things happened. It just seemed right. I can't explain it.
But he had to go back "up there." He's an Elder now. And it's too dangerous for him to stay here. I understand that, but it hurts not having him here.
Especially now.
/Firewalled against Leo
Part of me wants to tell Leo about my unexpected news. But I just can't. He had to go. It's hard enough he had to leave me and Wyatt behind. But knowing about this would make things even more difficult for him. I don't know. None of this makes sense.
God, now I'm crying. I haven't really dealt with this yet, and now it's sinking in. Leo and I were finally back together, and now he's gone. And I have to deal with this alone.
Well, not totally alone. My sisters have been wonderful. They keep asking me if I need anything. Their support means so much to me. And Morrigan is an amazing friend. I'm thankful for them all.
This news? It's taking some getting used to. And Chris. I didn't believe Phoebe and Paige at first, but then I saw him for the first time as my son. I just knew. Mothers know these things.
I have no idea what to say to him. I'm feeling so many emotions right now. Guilt, confusion, sadness, joy. I'm trying to sort through them all.
I have so many questions, but he probably can't answer them because the future could change drastically.
Chris, I-I'm sorry. If there's anything at all you need, please tell me. I want to makes things right.
/End firewall
/Firewalled against everyone but my sisters
Sisters? It would have been nice if you, you know, shared this information with me. And why did everyone and their dog know before I did?
It seems like I was the last to know... er... second to last. *sigh*
/End firewall
It started out fine. The birthday party for Wyatt went well. I only had to freeze the room once. After the party is when things got strange... er, normal for Sunday I suppose. A darklighter decided to stop by after the party. Turns out he was after Leo the whole time.
After a freak accident (which really wasn't) involving the hands of discontent, Leo and I ended up on the ghostly plane with the darklighter. And we didn't have our powers. There was a lot of running, fighting, crying... Leo was hurt, there was no one else around... He told me he still loves me. And then... things happened. It just seemed right. I can't explain it.
But he had to go back "up there." He's an Elder now. And it's too dangerous for him to stay here. I understand that, but it hurts not having him here.
Especially now.
/Firewalled against Leo
Part of me wants to tell Leo about my unexpected news. But I just can't. He had to go. It's hard enough he had to leave me and Wyatt behind. But knowing about this would make things even more difficult for him. I don't know. None of this makes sense.
God, now I'm crying. I haven't really dealt with this yet, and now it's sinking in. Leo and I were finally back together, and now he's gone. And I have to deal with this alone.
Well, not totally alone. My sisters have been wonderful. They keep asking me if I need anything. Their support means so much to me. And Morrigan is an amazing friend. I'm thankful for them all.
This news? It's taking some getting used to. And Chris. I didn't believe Phoebe and Paige at first, but then I saw him for the first time as my son. I just knew. Mothers know these things.
I have no idea what to say to him. I'm feeling so many emotions right now. Guilt, confusion, sadness, joy. I'm trying to sort through them all.
I have so many questions, but he probably can't answer them because the future could change drastically.
Chris, I-I'm sorry. If there's anything at all you need, please tell me. I want to makes things right.
/End firewall
/Firewalled against everyone but my sisters
Sisters? It would have been nice if you, you know, shared this information with me. And why did everyone and their dog know before I did?
It seems like I was the last to know... er... second to last. *sigh*
/End firewall