8 years ago tomorrow i was at gatorland.

8 years ago today i got a hug from my aunt that i NEVER want to feel again.

8 years ago yesterday i was at Sand Lake hospital looking at pointe orlando being built for the last time from that room.

... 8 years from now, i will still remember every detail of 8 years ago this week like it was yesterday...

I have a new friend that will be joining me everywhere i go for awhile... until i can get rid of him... his name is bruce and he is my ulcer. he has torn up my asophagus(?) and helped me lose weight. For the second one, i'd almost like him to stick around for awhile... However, today i wanted to go running and about halfway through, he didn't ( Read more... )

i wish people loved me as much as animals.

so i definately took pictures of a billionaire today... and by that i mean of the President of Anheuser Busch and SeaWorld...etc. etc.etc. That man is insane. but it's a pretty cool thing to put on my resume. but he's still insane. he patted my side down to make a point today and as awkward as it was, he pretty much owns me, so i couldn't ( Read more... )

i must put on good fronts, so here it is:

i cant be my only friend. I thought that i could, but i cant. It gets too lonely. Im 20 and i work 50 hours a week and go to bed at 10 because ive severed all my friendships because i didnt need anybody but myself. Now i dont work for 10 days and realize how not ok i am. i need to get out of this

I have this horrible feeling that by the time i wake up, it'll be too late.
I have this horrible, haunting feeling that by the time i learn to let people in, it'll be too late.
I have this horrible, haunting, gut wrenching feeling that by the time i figure out my life past, present, and future, it'll be too late.

i cant.

i love boston.. i need to be in a place that has different seasons and real cities and scenic views. I need to move from place to place staying only as long as i need to in each to study the towns and take pictures til i have everything on film(or thanks to nikon, on my computer ( Read more... )

i got my first ticket today and I lost all of my photos from my computer.. most of which i didnt have backups of... and that pretty much explains how my life has been going lately.

these last couple of weeks have been extremely hard and rough. i dont know what to do anymore.

molly had her kittens today. kinda bittersweet.

soooo ( Read more... )