Okay this is a really really really really really really really really long update ( Read more... )

Two old pictures ♥ enjoy...
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It's all my falut... Laura is going to go kill her self because i said i was going to kill myself. God it's all my fucking falut. I miss Matt.... I think I should call him when i get done writing this... cause i need someone to talk to...Yeah i talked to Kendra about it... but it still doesnt help... why? I have no clue. I found out today that my ( Read more... )

Haha oh wow.. i havent updated this thing for a longgggggggggg time... Well... Um what has been going on?? Well... I'm sixteen now, I colored my hair black, and i cut my hair so that i have bangs now. Um... I'm i duno what you wanna call me i guess single? I duno whats going on with Dan and I. I guess were still trying to figure it out. I like my ( Read more... )

I wrote this in school. So my thoughts are totally not 100% here. My chest has been hurting me a lot lately, i think it's because im stressed out a bit. I'm worried about my moma[ she wants to get her triple bypass surgery,done I'm not worried about her getting it done im worried about her dying on the operating table. My moms a diabetic so she has ( Read more... )

Well, everybody.. im not dead. I just haven't felt like updating this thing.But alot has been going on... good and bad. I found that Lacey's daddy's dying which that makes me very upset. I can't stand her being upset, it breaks my heart that i can't do anything to help her ease her pain, but im always there for her when ever she needs me... no ( Read more... )

I'm so depressed today its not even funny. I just want to lay down and go to sleep. I wish i could cut again, but i dont want to end up back at a mental hospital like last year. If I wasnt crazy before then.. after being in there you'd definally go crazy. Plus if i cut again i dont want Dani, Lacey, Jason, and Daimen to worry about me.I hate this ( Read more... )

Wow I haven't written in here for a while... Let's see... Hm.. I cut my hair and dyed it black but its growing longer again. when my hair gets to a certain length I'm going to be putting in blood red streaks so when it fades it turns into pink haha two for the price of one. <3 Um what else? Oh I started school.. I hate it! I dont wanna go everyday ( Read more... )

I feel like crying. I don't even know why?!? Maybe it's because i start school in 5 days? How the hell do i know anymore? I miss Lacey.. I haven't talked to her in like forever... I hope she's not mad at me or anything. Dani's in Va right now with her ugly ass ex boyfriend Dc. ;/ blah im such a loser.

im listening to this song, and it's making me think of how i wanna live my life. I don't want to live like my parent's, I don't want fear to run my life. My father works so hard that i think his bones are breaking. It scares me because i think ima lose my parents before im even old enough to take care of my sister and move out of my house. I'm ( Read more... )