I... I, you know, I kind of don't know.... About the classmate thing, I mean.
I mean, in my heart, he's Vayne, our friend, the Vayne we always knew. And in a way, he is, because the Vayne we knew was always a Mana.... But at the same time, he's... I have to remember he's not like me. He's this vast, amazing thing.... And sometimes, I do just want to bow down in front of him. It's so strange... I'm so used to him being, you know, the guy we hung out with for three years. And yet he isn't. And yet he is. I still haven't quite wrapped my head around him....
But, anyway... you know that I'm in full support of your relationship, right? Even if he's a Mana and you pact with him. It doesn't seem wrong, to me, because... if you have that perfect bond, everything else is kind of small by comparison, right? Like you said, he's already going to get to see into intimate parts of you... what's anything else, compared to that? I guess not everybody sees it that way... but... I think it's beautiful... so I'll always support you, okay?
He both is and isn't our classmate, right? It's so strange. He's Vayne, not someone whose altar we've come to visit. And yet he's also-- also-- well, you know what I saw...
Thank you for your support...
I know there are going to be some people who'll think I'm a pervert for saying this, if they don't already, but I don't think being physically intimate with one's Mana is a terrible thing. Physically touching someone is not really much in comparison with the bond that's already present. I suppose people will say I'm biased, though, because it's such a convenient excuse.
Yeah, exactly. It's like, we can be all under the influence of firewater and seeing him shine like a god-- and he still does, kinda, out of the corner of your eye-- and yet it's hard to not treat him like he's the person you knew as a classmate. Especially when it's not like he's changed, but just like he's discovering what all the parts of himself he already knew about before.
Hey, like I said, I don't think it's weird. And I think people will get it... I mean, it's not like it's the first time I've heard of it or anything. Actually, if I'm honest, once I found out he was a Mana it kind of seemed the logical next step that you two would pact. I know if I were in love with someone who was a Mana, that would sound like the most beautiful thing in the world to me....
Exactly-- he's not not "just Vayne". The difference is that "just Vayne" is, well, a lot.
Oh, I've heard of it for sure. The first time I heard of it involved a lot of snickering, though, and I'm under no illusions that that isn't going on about me right now. But yes... it's what I want, nonetheless.
And the second time I heard of it was from the Mana of Light, from whom I more than heard of it... But we're not going into that here. If my reputation could get any worse...
There's so much here... so much I could say, so much I don't know what to say to.... It's all tumbling out of you at once and I don't know where to start. I... it's just like I want to pick up everything you've said, as if I could, and just hold it, and say... I don't even know what I'd say. Hehe... I feel red to my ears, and shivery to my toes
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I'm happy, Vayne... so happy... and I want this. I really want. If I don't have you now I'll pact with you in my sleep the way sensei did, just from sheer longing, I know... The thinnest veil between us, let us tear it away...
I'd much rather be awake... to feel all this... to feel every moment of it, coursing, shivering through me....
This'll be the first time I've pacted and actually known what was going on. Sensei, I didn't know... Sulpher, I don't remember. Now... now I can focus on everything... so let's... give in to that feeling....
...Pamela, do you even sleep? And I don't think that's what he meant.
Anyway, you know I stick up for you guys, 100%. I mean, with the stuff people say about me just because my culture is different, I'd be a bit of a hypocrite if I went around saying the way you guys did things was bad. You're a great couple-- I don't see why anyone would be against it.
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I mean, in my heart, he's Vayne, our friend, the Vayne we always knew. And in a way, he is, because the Vayne we knew was always a Mana.... But at the same time, he's... I have to remember he's not like me. He's this vast, amazing thing.... And sometimes, I do just want to bow down in front of him. It's so strange... I'm so used to him being, you know, the guy we hung out with for three years. And yet he isn't. And yet he is. I still haven't quite wrapped my head around him....
But, anyway... you know that I'm in full support of your relationship, right? Even if he's a Mana and you pact with him. It doesn't seem wrong, to me, because... if you have that perfect bond, everything else is kind of small by comparison, right? Like you said, he's already going to get to see into intimate parts of you... what's anything else, compared to that? I guess not everybody sees it that way... but... I think it's beautiful... so I'll always support you, okay?
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Thank you for your support...
I know there are going to be some people who'll think I'm a pervert for saying this, if they don't already, but I don't think being physically intimate with one's Mana is a terrible thing. Physically touching someone is not really much in comparison with the bond that's already present. I suppose people will say I'm biased, though, because it's such a convenient excuse.
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Hey, like I said, I don't think it's weird. And I think people will get it... I mean, it's not like it's the first time I've heard of it or anything. Actually, if I'm honest, once I found out he was a Mana it kind of seemed the logical next step that you two would pact. I know if I were in love with someone who was a Mana, that would sound like the most beautiful thing in the world to me....
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Oh, I've heard of it for sure. The first time I heard of it involved a lot of snickering, though, and I'm under no illusions that that isn't going on about me right now. But yes... it's what I want, nonetheless.
And the second time I heard of it was from the Mana of Light, from whom I more than heard of it... But we're not going into that here. If my reputation could get any worse...
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This'll be the first time I've pacted and actually known what was going on. Sensei, I didn't know... Sulpher, I don't remember. Now... now I can focus on everything... so let's... give in to that feeling....
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Anyway, you know I stick up for you guys, 100%. I mean, with the stuff people say about me just because my culture is different, I'd be a bit of a hypocrite if I went around saying the way you guys did things was bad. You're a great couple-- I don't see why anyone would be against it.
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