Being finished with school, I do feel a bit adrift-- not in a bad way, but like I'm buoyed on a sea surrounded in mist, not quite sure of where I'm going to land. It's like Nikki said: suddenly the future seems a bit less visible. I feel contented, and warm, and I don't at all mind bobbing out here among the gentle waves, just waiting for what's to ( Read more... )

Well... that's that. I guess I'm no longer a student at Al-Revis. I feel a little wistful, although I also feel so happy about so many things that I can't be too sad. The whole point of being a student here was to become what I am now... Even my school pride just points to this as a culmination, even if I'm not part of the school any longer ( Read more... )

I wonder if the letter I wrote to my parents will get home before I do. It might turn out to be pointless, but I couldn't not tell them as soon as I could...

I was in the middle of writing it when someone put a paper slip under my door with my exam results, and I found out I'd graduated with honours, and I thought, yesterday this is what would ( Read more... )

Never mind everything I just said ( Read more... )

( I am not having a happy day. I have every reason to be, but I'm just not. )

Yesterday, it was pointed out to me that being strong was not the most important thing in the world. It's a sentiment I generally agree with; I most certainly know it's far more important to be a decent person, to do worthwhile things, to make the world a better place, and so on. And I certainly know that there are other attributes that matter as ( Read more... )

I can't do this. I thought I would be able to bear it, but after all, it turns out that I can't. I'm so sorry, everyone... Vayne, sensei, everybody...

Vayne, please come home. I need you. I need you so much. Please, come back...

I'm confused, and that's one of the parts of this that is frustrating rather than painful: I cannot even articulate or explain what's bad and how, half the time ( Read more... )

I knew I would be afraid, but I didn't think I would be this afraid.

Pacting with Vayne ( Read more... )