How is it that when you tell me your in a hot tub with 3 other girls, and somehow I feel guilty. Am I not supposed to care that your with other girls? Or is it just Im supposed to let you do what ever you want without thinking that my feelings matter? Im so sick of being hurt over you. All I ever wanted to do was make you smile, and somehow it just ( Read more... )

Im looking for a job, any kind of job... will someone flipping hire me already ( Read more... )

im back and now my new phone got turned off due to taylors non payment on her bill last month, my monther and father want me on anti depressants and go to the military, i am in debt, i have no energy left for this kind of stuff. im so sick and tired of this bull shit. i just wish i had a damn magic wand to fucking fix all the bull shit in not just ( Read more... )

I've felt so out of place lately, maybe its because for the first time in my life Ive had a hard time making and meeting new friends in this town. I know its only been a little over a week but I still feel lonely, I mean I can't just hang out with Taylor every night we would definately get sick of each other. I guess Im just home sick, which is ( Read more... )

Today I am going to do another photo shoot, I get to pick what I wear and how the photos are going to be done since I am representing myself I think I will do something tasteful maybe something a little sexy but not gross playboy style, no nudity! I told my photographer I refuse to be shot naked, I don't mind the illusion that Im naked but no one ( Read more... )

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I love it here! Its so beautiful! There is snow everywhere and there was flipping icicles on my house yesterday morning! I have people here that want to hear me sing and record tracks with them, Im so excited for that and Ill be getting a job sometime this week along with a vocal teacher! Things are falling into place and I've found my passion and ( Read more... )

i hate it when i wake up realizing your not there
wanting you every second its just not fair
you allowed me to be myself
and that the old me is now put on the shelf
its time for me to go about a new track
but this time i will not be looking back
its hard to think its really the end
its just that neither of us were willing to bend
my heart was never ( Read more... )

Hello Salt Lake  City! Thats right Im moving out, and I want the world to know. j/k but seriously Im moving to SLC in a few weeks. Im moving for several reasons:

1. a good change in scenery
2. new opportunities
3. cleaner air
4. snowboarding/mountain climbing/skiing/hiking
5. shakespear/sundance film festivals
6. to get out of this shitty town
7. make a ( Read more... )

i am single, of course it wouldn't have lasted
i am sick AGAIN
i am depressed
i am alone
i am tired
i am lonely  and
i just cant take it anymore.