tuesday was october. it was cloudy cold windy dark all at once. i cant write because i say it all. i feel so at rest. nirav's home, it's raining and i have a lot of work to do. i wish there was a way to capture the way things are right now. 

this is a weird state of mind. i dont want to go outside or look out any windows because no one's left. everyone's gone. it was even worse because i saw all of them last night and then again this morning so it was just like normal. we were left jus talking again. i kept saying shit like yeah dude we'll just do this shit over the summer not ( Read more... )

why do girls always have whack ass boring boyfriends? it seems like there isnt an exception to this rule besides paige. it takes so much out of me trying to be friendly and shit to them. i fake it pretty well and it's funny because they think im hella cool with them even though im always tryin to convince their girls to break up with them. last ( Read more... )

the screams wont come out of my mouth. watching people slowly self destruct and kill off the parts of them that make them who they are is a different type of pain that cant be expressed with a noise. reaching out to them is futile because everyone has a shred of hope that theyll get through their bullshit and still be able to maintain. im alone but ( Read more... )

7:25 P.M.

Hey Chirag. Thanks. I sorted him out, he shouldn't be bothering anyone anymore.

i dont know why im still surprised every time i go biking with eugene. we ended up at a motor bike dirt park yesterday. their easy trails were steep as fuck and the downhill was as close to vertical as it could get. eugene almost endoed on one of the milder portions. there were drop offs on the steep ass downhill. i also went to berkeley to pick up ( Read more... )

i hate weed. it's consumed some of my best friends and is in the process of consuming one or two more. i wish i could show people the world through my eyes. i suppose my goal is in the process of being finished because i can't write anything in here.

fuck memory partitions

i havent talked to anyone in weeks and i dont want to anymore. london as a city has just been alright ,nothing as sick as dubai but the whole time i've just been having these crazy ass deep conversations with my cousin. up until a year or two ago he was my main motherfucking influence but i decided his shit was not what i wanted and got new ( Read more... )

dubai stop over was sick . london is okay so far. shits expensive. im hella fucking tired. tonight. battery.................dead