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fragments.like a distorted dream but it is reality

got home wednesday, hung out with ben then frank and eugene then started a sleeping marathon till the thursday at around 8pm. from then until now i've spent all my time refining either my sisters yazeeds or my essay. taking breaks to see people or eat. ive thrown my coin into the future machine again, let's see where it takes me.

doing good. don't miss anything that's close anymore and am distant from my past as well. i'm focusing more on myself more than what i can offer cuz i'm done with that for a little while. back 2 business that i've put off for an hour

today i sat at a car dealership and when it came down for the decision of whether 26 g's would be well spent i saw 10 eyez on me. it's been a shit week i think. i'm sure a bunch of good things happened but a lot of bad ones did too. i would have never imagined my feelings towards my bro the day he got married to have been what they were. i've felt ( Read more... )

thanks melissa and thanks to my mind for finally bringing me back. the thoughts to not be back are still around but as i get farther i'll be able to shake them off. i'm excited and sad for everyone at the same time

i feel like it's pointless now. i'm struggling from letting the D hit me but i've felt like shit for too many months now so it's probably already there. i'm not fond of life anymore and no one can help anymore either

refinement over time. i push the old ideals out and am trying to push the past back too. it always creeps up on me and the memory man steps out of me and starts living. boc ruined and enriched my life at the same time. memories even moreso

cyclying. i thought i was getting better at it. i know what the cycles are and how they work but now

okay i'm saaaaaaaaaaafe