146 this morning.
not cool.
let's change that.
let's beat the stupid bitches.

had a TERRIBLE weekend, was on my period.
but i stepped it up again.
i'm 145.5 which is good ...
i lost 3.5 lbs in ONE DAY.
hahahahha, wow.
i wanna be 138 by fridaaaayyyy!
<3

144 this morning.
trying hard.
playing ddr lately.
eating healthy.
and trying to get myself motivated.
purging too.
<3

143.9 lbs today.

not completely bad considering ive been eating&trying to restrict
after a good full week of binging constantly and purging.
hopefully i lose again tomorrow, idc if its not a lot...
i just cant gain, i wont let myself again.

im going to the bahamas in the end of july and  i want to be THIN.
not a fat cow that no boys will stare at.


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142.9 today.
not eating past 4pm.
tomorrows school.
liquidfasting at least 3 days.
<3


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weight: 143 lbs.
fasting tomorrow until the late night when i partyyy.
then the new year...
i suppose ill start it with restriction&the following day with a fast :)
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well, becky inspired me to make a timeline of my journey
through my ED/weight difference so i thought i'd give it a shot.


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this morning i was back up to 142.6
FML.

had a horrible day at school,
BINGED. PURGED.

i feel better that i purged, but upset i did this.
i take everything out on myself. why cant i be normal?
my life is so overwhelming and un normal.
im trapped in something i can never get out of.
UGH :(


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so today started out good with my weight at: 139lbs.
it was good to be back in the 130's, i was happy.

then people started talking about b/p in class today.
i suddenly got dizzy& that's all i thought about.
i was sick to my stomach& a emotional wreck all day.

so what do i do?
i consumed 800-900cals today,
fml.

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