i really just need a release!!! from my life from my husband from everything. i often wonder why i am here and what i should be doing with my life. i tried so hard to have it all. i am directionless and stale. if i were a loaf of bread i would be thrown away. the zoloft isnt helping anymore, i cant seem to get pregnant again which is what ( Read more... )

I am still alive after all this time!! We just celebrated my son's first birthday, it seems like just yesterday that I was holding and kissing him for the first time. He is so big now and will be walking soon. I miss everyone very much and am sorry we have lost touch. Drop me a line and I will get back to you, and if anyone has heard anything ( Read more... )

It is far far too hot to be anywhere not air conditioned! I can not wait for Michelle to get home from work so I can get out of this sauna. I took her kids to McDonalds to play all day out of the heat. Now I am guzzling Arizona green tea trying to stop sweating...I hate to sweat ( Read more... )

I know I promised I would be on here more, but you know how things are. Stuff gets hectic and things slip through my mind like sands through the hour glass (obviously I have made time for the soaps!!) So my wee tiny stinky is almost 6 months old now, I can hardly beleive it!! I recently had to put away some of his old clothes and I sat and cryed ( Read more... )

Well,it has finally happened!! I am officially 6 weeks pregnant!! Congrates to all in Fertility Issues who have recently had the same grand news and keep trying to those who are still waiting. Thats all for now, I must go register at Baby Depot and start hunting for the perfect bedroom set for the new nursery. Love to all and I will try to post ( Read more... )

Just a quicky to let you all know that I am still here. I feel like I am barely here but non the less still taking up space. I have been having a rough time and the drugs are not helping. I ended up cutting myself last night and the night before. I am on my way to the Dr. to tell her that this pill is not working for me. I am taking my mom ( Read more... )

I am feeling better I guess...... still not sure that I belong here, but Trevie is being really sweet. Smoking lots of cigarettes and trying to stay on this diet. I must return to work on Wednesday at noon, not looking forward to that. I have put in just one application for employment to try and escape my white walled prison, maybe I should send ( Read more... )

So I have called in to work sick for the 3rd time in the last 4 working days and I am almost hoping that they fire me for it. I dont know what is wrong with me, but I have been having these strange feelings lately. I feel like my life has no meaning, that I am useless and should no longer take up precious space in this world. I have had feelings ( Read more... )

So, like ya! I am a dirty bird!!!
Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... CategoryYour Score Average Self-Lovin'51.7%
Explored the pleasures of the flesh 65%Shamelessness64.3%
It takes a couple of drinks 79.4% Sex Drive 73.7%
A fool for love, but not always77.7%Straightness14.3%
Knows the other body type like a map 44.8% Gayness 35.7%
At least one weekend ( Read more... )

I just cant stress enough how I long for the days to come that I no longer have to work!  My house always needs to be cleaned and there is always something that needs to be fixed or picked up or taken out.  Maybe I should look for something that is daytime hours again.... Maybe its the late nights away from Trevie that make this place so hated....
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