I hope that someone finds this, just in case.

I’m empty and there is nothing left.

I am struggling to stay and it’s only for them, not for me.

I can’t do this anymore. Something broke inside me and I don’t have it in me anymore to fix it.

I’m going to give my life 30 more days. 30 days to try to fix it.

That is all.

I'm so glad I didn't marry you, you lying, cheating fuck ( Read more... )

Jealousy is going to eat me alive. It's rotting me from the inside out.

I love you more than anyone should ever love anyone.

And while I really, really wish you understood some stuff, you just never can... because I can never fully explain it.

Even so, I'm still going to have your babies someday.

Did it ever occur to you that the reason I get upset that you work so much is that your shit hours always seem to happen when I need you the most ( Read more... )

Holy fuck, I'm engaged to my best friend.

When I tell you I think you moving in with a SO you've known for three weeks is a bad idea and I'm concerned you are jumping into things too fast, do not fucking tell me it's because I'm "engaged, so I wouldn't understand", like I've never been excited about a relationship after a period of being alone ( Read more... )

Too long of a break.

How do I get away from you without seeming like I'm overreacting to something that happened months ago? Seeing you makes me want to retch. One minute you're being fake friendly, the next you're glaring at me.

Just ignore me. It's better than me having to have any interaction with you whatsoever.

I got it.

I don't know how, but I got it.

Things are looking up. So far up I can touch the sky.

Can't wait any longer. About to explode.

On another note, it's been two years since we set things in motion, and Ive never felt more connected and attached to a person as I do with you.

I love you with all my heart.