Merry Christmas folks! Though it seems odd to me that we celebrate it solely for the presents and family time since none of us are the least bit religious, I love christmas. It means good food and chocolate and what's better than that, anyway? I'll tell you. Nothing. Chocolate rules the universe. Anyway, I had some disturbingly non-Christmas- ( Read more... )

Yay, things are looking up in a few areas! I found my wallet (in a place I had looked 20 times already of course). I got in contact with some crewmembers from the NYC thing finally ... it was so unreal not talking to them at all after coming home from that. I miss that stuff. It has rekindled my hope of going back next summer for their ( Read more... )

Why do I always lose stuff. Makes everything feel so useless. Sometimes it's so hard just to stay positive through normal day to day stuff, and it makes me feel so meek because so many people go through so much shit in the world and I have no right to waste what I have by feeling bad or being idle but I do it anyway. I wish I had some idea of ( Read more... )

Oh man, why is it so hard to get out of bed? It takes me like two hours after I wake up to get up these days. New mattress of comfiness + long story driven dreams almost every night + laziness means every night I say okay tomorrow I get up early so I can get lots of stuff accomplished ... then in the morning I say ohhhh but it's so ( Read more... )

So, I finally got around to getting that drug evaluation. They said that whether I use drugs or alcohol has nothing to do with whether I need treatment for drug abuse or not. Since I had problems in the past (in high school, more than three years ago), and I got a ticket for possession of marijuana this summer, that means that obviously I don't ( Read more... )

I am so angry with people. I can't believe how much utter bullshit my mom has to go through just to be a teacher in this state. She almost has a PhD, and she has spotless credentials and referrences ... she helped turn her school in Long Beach around. Head of the science department, doubled the school's science scores on state tests in 2 years ( Read more... )

There's always more depressing news, eh? Hmph ( Read more... )

My cichlid couple had kids. Nifty! There's lots of the little tadpole-looking-buggers. I wonder if the knifefish is gonna eat em. They've been defended pretty well so far. The tank is seperated into two halves now pretty much (on the bottom at least, the fish that swim up top most of the time don't care much) ... the left half is the nest of ( Read more... )

( LJ Cut for drug talk and pictures. )

So, quitting selling weed ... that'll be good. I guess I admitted some stuff about it the other night to myself, and to Caitlin, that I hadn't thought out loud before, so that was good. So, no more of that. And I'm not gonna go back to smoking after I take this UA, too. I want to see if I can go without it for good. Or at least for a long time ( Read more... )