i know i said i woulnd't wait, but nothing else feels right ( Read more... )

i don't know why at the duke some cute guy approached me and complimented me and why i walked away. i guess i thought i was too good for him, and that ____ was in teh back of my mind.

this isn't making sense. iwish i coudl take back time. !!!

ugh.

last night kyle and i stopped by lukes to say happy birthday. of course, kyle doesn't know any of my former highschool stoner friends, and doesn't want to see them either so he stayed in the car. when i arrived, luke was making a trip to the beer store with nilsson. Kyle and I agreed i wouldn't spend more than 10 minutes in there. however 10 ( Read more... )

it's hard summarizing yourself within minutes. pressure to communicate as concisely and lightly as you can. i hate interviews but at least i'm getting better and better at them. my interview at bombay didn't go well. fuck. why can't i do this right ( Read more... )

i spent at least 100 on this weekend. i would like to stop sending so much money. and on what? i can't even say. transporation, food, booze ( Read more... )

the turkey i'm eating makes me want to puke. fuck processed meat ( Read more... )

so on friday i was supposed to go to the movies with kyle after my shift at blacks. however things got screwed up and he couldn't pick me up straight from work. so i went home, got changed, and then went on msn. harpal messaged me asking me if i wanted to go to a party downtown. i decided to go with it, and cancel plans with kyle becuase i was ( Read more... )

oh man...i totally get it....i used to be the same way...i was a negative asshole who got mad at people when they were happy ( Read more... )

i decided too many people read the old journal, and that i couldn't be honest.

i want to be honest.