trying to make myself write for this poetry class is killing me. maybe i just haven't stormed over it enough. brain storm. i've got a few ideas, just not organized in any shape or fashion. no style ( Read more... )

falling out with pretty much everything. everyone. but this time i knew it was coming. some didn't fall though, or fell with me. and two sheet of paper have never frightened me this much before in my life. an application to go to gana for a mission trip. i have to decide by the end of january ( Read more... )

classes, worked out, twice. didn't do homework. read another 30 pages, maybe. went to church. good times ( Read more... )

today was cold. honors was boring. copyright law is what it sounds like. but poetry was really cool today. we did some writing exercises, just listing exercises and it was awesome. i shared a bit of the first one when asked to and i think my class thinks i'm off my rocker a bit. the list was "what i've wished for," and so i went to town. ( Read more... )

i got out of the habit of updating as soon as classes started. what a bummer. it's been awesome. classes are classes and i already have an honors project to work on. big surprise. went to sozo training on saturday. that was awesome. during some group exercises, i ended up working through some forgiveness issues. it wasn't totally resolved, ( Read more... )

i'm sick of feeling like this. i just won't open up. i shut down. shut off. turn off. anything and everything i've felt just hurts. and for no reason. i just do. maybe it's because i'm shafting my God's time, maybe i'm just screwed up. whatever it is, i hate it ( Read more... )

i'm packed and ready to go tomorrow morning. a little restless so i'm watching anime, conversing, and journaling at the same time ( Read more... )

here i am, watching the tape of the show we just played. i'm so tired. i feel really lame too. like the show. was lame. but some people liked it evidently. the owner is really pushing for us to play there more and stuff. and cory got the owner's daughter's number. craziness. the two new songs sounded ok. still mad at freeman for not ( Read more... )

down: woke up not well ( Read more... )

finished another song today. two in four days total. i think. and we're playing on saturday. and the best thing about the new songs is that they actually mean something. it's not just us playing some song about some girl, they mean something. however, it would seem that since my songs have taken on meaning, any conversation i might try to ( Read more... )