Fear becomes the natural expression for everything I am feeling,
always

Doubt becomes the natural expression for everything I am feeling,
always

Guiding angel of listlessness

Guiding angel of listlessness
Your guiding angel of disharmony
Angel guides your uselessness
A faithful angel guiding

Guiding angel of thoughtlessness
Your TV guide of angels
Angel guides your disinterestedness
A faithful angel guiding

Guiding angel of distractedness
Your guiding angel of disunity
Angel guides your randomness
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Life is so counterintuitive for me, and you have to constantly be aware of what's around you to really enjoy it. Because that's all anyone can really enjoy--no amount of dreaming will create something better--and who can say our ideals are better than reality itself all the time? I try to understand what I hate, and love what I ignore, because it ( Read more... )

Going back through my recent entries, I'm trying to decide what made me so unhappy, and the only common thread I can come up wit his boys. Now that I've started living for myself, it seems, I'm happier ( Read more... )

i havent written anything at all in a while. not a poem, not even a line of anything other than strictly analytical compositions on class articles. loads and loads of articles. In fact five pounds of articles from one class. all composited into my short term memory and translated for proof of viewing, my receipt for academic transaction, my short ( Read more... )

god i feel hopelessly awkward. like i'm always obligated to be the one who is alone. well if i'm going to be alone, i might as well be it somewere else, somewhere with good scenery, and somewhere where other alone people are for me to look at, and to consider ( Read more... )

I'll let the music fill the room tonight, even if it sounds worse in dispersal. i need to feel like this place has something in it something to fill the jumps between bookcase to closet to desk to bed. something to fill the emptiness between my roomates rooms. something to light up an airless construction like this. why do i always feel let down ( Read more... )

when's the best time to tell someone that you love him? at this point, i'm thinking never.

today is red wine for lost love ( Read more... )