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Dylan. I don't know why you are still reading this if you care so little about how I feel. Comment if you will. Although I didn't like your other comments on livejournal (assuming they were you) about me and Alex and how it would be great for the group if I left. I'm sure everyone agrees with you too. And another thing. Everyone reading this, if ( Read more... )

Jessie. I only did and asked the things I did to you because I wanted you to know how I felt about Alex before you found out from some other random source that one of your friends is dating Alex. I didn't think that would be fair to you. I'm sorry. It made sense to me at the time and I guess I am wrong a lot. I apologize.

So I tried to talk to Dylan tonight and it didn't work at all. Now he is even madder and he's mad at Alex which sucks because he didn't do anything. If you are reading this Dylan I would really like to know why you stopped talking to me or caring about me. If you decided that you hate me then tell me why. Don't just ignore me. I considered you one ( Read more... )

He finally asked me out. Alex and I are now officially going out. Thanks for listening to everything I've had to say these past few months. Grey will always have a place in my heart. I am glad we are on the right track to be friends. Things seem to be settling down across the board. Finally some resolution with everything. I miss Dylan so much. I ( Read more... )

Why can't I do it? Why can't I go a day without yelling, crying, laughing... I am so worked up right now cause I can't play DOTA. I tell my really good friend and ex-boyfriend this hoping he'd understand and he's like...you're mad over a video game....yeah....he plays mgs...he should understand. Anyway. He's no help. He gets mad that I won't talk ( Read more... )

Mi mom says I am exibiting signs of depression. I should go back into therapy. Maybe she's right but I don't think it will help...it didn't last time. I feel so empty. So sad. I know that I shouldn't be bitching on live journal like usual but at least cyber space listens. Why can't I stop thinking about the people that are causing me pain? Maybe ( Read more... )

Today is going to be just like yesterday. I still have my summer reading to finish. Which i probably will mostly do. Today I woke up at 11:30 and watched Yugioh. Then I took a shower and cleaned my room. My parents finally got a printer for my study which kicks ass because unlike their normal way of doing things (let's buy the cheapest if not the ( Read more... )

The summer is over. It's not almost over. It is. The week before school starts is always a week that is very stressful and full of depression in my case at least. Right now I am listening to MGS music with tears in my eyes that I won't let spill over. I am never going to finish all my summer reading. Like it matters. I will finally have more ( Read more... )

People I've made out with on Alex C.'s bed:

Alex C.
Kira
Bryce
Jessie
Myself

this list is too short.