oh fuck

where to begin. got a new job. pretty fucking stoked on that.just been working alot. and drinking alot. what eles is new. now time to start saving up to get my ears closed. i really want to leave this place for a long time. i need to see what else is beyond fl. i hate it hear i hate alot of people here. its killing me to stay here.on a brighter ( Read more... )

its really starting to take it toll on me to stay here.stress out out about family shit. not having money to take care of myself. being abandon buy people. idk i just hope i can get my ears closed up cause i really want to leave this place and maybe never come back. to many stupid fucking people here. but i will miss alot of friends here. but its ( Read more... )

ready to leave this god forsaking place. alot of bad things some good. single. new living place. new outlook on life, more hateful. navy bound hopefully. yep thats it.....eat it.

soo yeah shit has been not soo good. my pops is leaveing in like 2 week ( fucking terrified) i have no clue what im gonna do. how im gonna take care of my self. i have to grow up and it sucks. me and a certian someone are done and it sucks but they really didnt seem like the person i thought they were. sketchy and shady. but its what ever i know ( Read more... )

I'd pray to him if I thought he was rel. I wouldn't question him if he could make me feel anything other than apathy anything other than certain tragedy.

i would give anything to feel like i did 9 years ago

I've spent so much time imprisoned in my mind, told to shut up and sit down, to close my eyes. I've realized what they've done to me, trying numbing me from the pain of the world. It's everlasting, it'll never go away, it'll never change, not today. Even sheltered lives can't hide from not feeling alive it's like throwing knives and my mind. It's ( Read more... )

well fuck alot has happened. since the last one. some good and alot bad. where to start. well my brother went to rehab. but hes done now. and now lives in homosassa fl. hes doing alot better (i hope) i dont talk to him as much anymore because its the same fucking thing everytime. he thinks my dad does drugs because they both dont get along at all ( Read more... )

well here it goes long awaited post. work music and drinking still. but now i have a gf and she is amazing. she likes to drink and alot of the same music i like so its tight . her name is allie. im soo happy now that i found some one not crazy and hyper . i took her to tally this past weekend and i was one of the best time ever . got toosee a lot ( Read more... )

yoo whats good. no a lot here work and music and drinking. and girls are still piecees of shit . what more to say . my band is dooing pretty good been playing soo big shows. just played with walls of jericho and kittie which was pretty gnar.ummmmm stoped smokeing cig AGAIN. ummm yea i hate everyone that is not my friend cause people suck ass. soo ( Read more... )