i jsut got home a little bit ago. i woke up at 12 sumthin. went to the mall with my mom n stuff...cuz im cool like that. went to work. came home, changed, met bobby, carly, kari, and aarons girlfriend at bob evans. the waiter said hed give me a dollar 25 if i drank this thing of syrup...i did it. then carly gave me a dollar if id eat a butter ( Read more... )

i need to stop drinking so much, and i need to stop thinking so much...and i think maybe ill be okay. life is such a trip i cant even begin to understand it. but i guess thats how its suppose to be, your not really here to understand things. just live your life, and chill the fuck out. you cant always get what you want, and things dont always go ( Read more... )

i dont mean to make her feel bad. i just feel fucked up. i dont mean to piss her off. i just got frustrated. i really dont know what to say. i think this is the blankest my mind has ever been. like the inside of my head, its like everything is just white. and nothing else. its so crazy. i hope if i get on meds it will help. because i think if i ( Read more... )

i feel like i havent been online in a very long time. alot has been goin on. not really with me i guess. more with everyone else. i dunno. my bad if i have stirred up any shit or been pissen anyone off. i dont really know. There really isnt anything for me to say anymore. there really isnt anything that i want. it all kinda got taken. shit could be ( Read more... )

ive never felt this way before ( Read more... )

my bad about my little freak out session last night. i dont know how to control it anymore. im happy one minute and wanting to die the next. but even when im happy, i hate how things are. i hate the way things change. I hate how perfect everything was and what it turned into. everything going on right now seems like a fucking tv show. STAY TUNED ( Read more... )

sorry about that entry....im losin my fuckin mind, my bad everyone, ill try to shut up now, im sorry

i cant take this, i dont know what to say, im sorry if this causes any problems, im seriously losing my mind, i cant find happiness anywhere, the only thing i want or miss is never going to happen, i hate everything man, i thought i could handle but i really cant, im losing it i swere im going fucking crazy i cant fucking sit still, i just want to ( Read more... )

im out here ( Read more... )

i guess i dont see why it matters if ive been childish about anything really. Its not like there is anyone around me for me to piss off by it or nothing. i have to call around so god damn much just to get lucky and have sumthing to do for a couple hours. im a fuckin loser. Im glad everyone else is happy tho, atleast sum fuckin body is. ive seen the ( Read more... )