its 1125, i just wrote a song about my friend chris; for a quick moment i started getting all emo and wondering if anybody would ever do anything like that for me.. and then i thought, its okay. i dont need someone to care for me, caring for everyone else is enough. in health i learned that without love a person could die and i was thinking, well ( Read more... )

although i have written many similar entrys i still just cant seem to understand why some songs can make you feel like your on top of the world and others can make you feel as though your stomach is emploding. how come? i think, however that i may have found some since of clarity. in my case and im sure iin many other instances that music is just ( Read more... )

today i slept, yesterday i did alot, too much for words. and now im talking to leana and watching tom green on cnbc, which i must say is very entertaining. i have friends... i fight with all of them and to some exstint i can confide in all of them and also to some exstint they are all there for me. summer changed things.. drasticly. and now that ( Read more... )

for a week or so, i thought my life was over... and in acouple of seconds, i relocated to a better although tougher place. for about three days, i planned on going to see him; hoping that everything would change. that we would get to talking and he would aske me to just hang or something. it seemed like an idiot proof plan. i got a good friend of ( Read more... )

Does it make me less of a person, if i want to see him again? or if i shed a tear because i keep reliving those seconds when he said it. last night i was telling  a friend about it and said, "well, welcome to the world of dating.". but really there is no way in hell that i have entered the world of dating. i had a taste of it, and it was so sweet ( Read more... )

well lately, i have been saying the old phrase, "when it rains, it pours", alot. well to say the least, it isnt just pouring any more, it is a hurricane, the water wont stop coming and i think that im drowning. i am stuck in this small one story ranch house in the middle of lousiana.. where it seems to flood so often... the whole town has been ( Read more... )

what is the purpose of a relfection? im not talking about the kind of reflection you see when you look in the mirror, but the kind that suttley shows up from out of no where when you really dont want it to. a few examples.... when your sad or stressed, you look like "poop"; when your happy and you look exquisite. but the kind of relfections im ( Read more... )

hes gone and i miss him like crazy. i have nothing to say, no poems, no clever remarks; all i have to say is that i miss him, and i dont know what im going to do.

no names are to be said but all the names that once did are dead, the times that  i stayed out all night have come to a close and the times that i face now are at all time lows, the faces i stared at are no longer here, i just knew that the end to the good times was near and now it has come and im feeling so cold, i wish they were with me but im oh ( Read more... )

When your feeling down, is it better to listen to sad music which you can identify with or happy music to try to get you in a better mood. Does the sad music calm your nerves at first but only make you burry yourself deeper into negative emotions? Does the happy music make you sadder because it covers happy times that you yourself feels like they ( Read more... )