It seems like every time I turn around, Lochai has left town again. Yesterday, I drove him to the airport, then went home to hang out with the cats and relax a bit. A couple hours into it, I was already starting to feel lonely. My parents are also out of town, so I am watching two homes, 5 cats, one dog, and bunches and bunches of fish. I was ( Read more... )

My friend, beingteri, sent me a message with beautiful lyrics, so, in the spirit of music, I am passing it on here ( Read more... )

The Last CD i Bought Was: a CD of buddhist chants ( Read more... )

He told me that he would like it if I would move in with him!!!!

*bounces deliriously around the room*

I feel like a schoolgirl.... I am so giddy!

Last night, when I got to Lochai's house, he told me to kneel. I did so, and I noticed that how I kneel for him has changed. For as far back as I can remember, anytime I have knelt, I have had my knees together. Occasionally I have opened them as an afterthought, but last night, there was no thought. I knelt and my knees were separated. My ( Read more... )

There is a comment attached to my previous post that tells everyone that I am the luckiest girl there ever was. I am in the most amazing relationship with a man who truly wants me and cares for me. As our relationship progresses, my feelings for him become more and more intense. At this point, I feel like my heart is going to explode. I cannot ( Read more... )

What a busy week! I had a great time in NY... went to Lochai's gallery opening, did a couple shoots, went to the Black and Blue Ball, spent time with some of his friends, made some new friends, etc....

It was wonderful. It felt like I was where I belonged. I had a great time hanging out and "working" with victoriablue. I'm really looking forward to her ( Read more... )

Sometimes I am surprised by how easily I can be made to feel more confident in myself. It really doesn't take much - this time, it was a friend calling because he is having a hard time and knows that I will not be judgemental. First he thanked me for checking in with him last night and asking how he was doing. Last week, he was having a hard ( Read more... )

( I'm an Angel )

Yesterday, I was talking with lochai on the way back from helping a friend of his. He was asking me what was wrong, as I was not talking at all, which is pretty atypical for me around people who I know. So, I started to explain, but it did seemed strange, so I decided to write about it, give myself a little more of a chance to digest the things we were ( Read more... )