Life is such a tripp. I was just lying here on Jason's bed imaging, wondering rather if Zero actually can kind of understand what I'm saying...lol I mean she reminds me so much Johnny in that way that I'm laying there in pain and she seemed to just know you know? And cuddle up next to me. I was almost falling asleep and kinda wish I had. The ( Read more... )

I just feel so god damned depressed right now. i dont know what to do with myself I'm so back and fourth. My brain, my body, everything in me WANTS to be happy. And I try my best to do so and do the things I feel I need to do. Then I eat or drink or smoke or wtf ever and feel guilty and want to do more. I hate how lonely I feel. I hate how my house ( Read more... )

I am so depressed. I just don't know what to do. I miss people like...There are people here all the time but i feel so lonely. I just feel- stuck and depressed and confused and scared. My family like everything is great right now. I don't know what I can do to escape this....rut. I need and want a job. I feel like I have put effort forth in order ( Read more... )

fuck a duck ( Read more... )

god I fucking hate this time of year. Nothing to do. This last year was one of the strangest fucking times of no was deff the strangest year of my life. because of me ( Read more... )

just turn the jukebox on and I smile like it hurt ( Read more... )

bwahhhhhhhh ( Read more... )

uhh just shaking right now. I was just about to leave and Jerry woke up...He starts with "I know we've had this conversation before but could you PLEASE PLEASE wake me up if I'm not up before ten" apart from yesterday...he slept past noon every day last week that is- if he slept. I am shaking cause he threw his belt all hard and is angry at ME that ( Read more... )

uh I have been sick the last couple of days. I am starting to feel better. I had some much needed talking to on saturday by some one sort of on the outside who could help me ( Read more... )

*sighs* where does one begin....I just find writting to be much like talking. Being that latley my social aquintences are down in numbers- exceeding every day I think its really the only thing I have that I truley feel good about doing anymore ( Read more... )