They say it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

I've come to believe it's a temporary solution to a permanent problem.

I was born with a hole in my heart. It used to whistle when they'd listen to it with a stethoscope. Doctors thought it would heal up if we just waited, and that's what it did. As life nears its end, I'm wondering if everything is regressing. I feel that hole opening up again ( Read more... )

the worst part about waking up from a dream like that is probably Sum-41. It was just another mindless dream with unfettered dream space, I was running through backyards in an afternoon that seemed to loop endlessly, and go nowhere. Every fence I jumped I ran into a new backyard that was exactly the same as the one I just hopped. I could turn left ( Read more... )

I thought breast cancer month/awareness/bullshit was last month? Why am I still hearing and seeing pink ads for charities? I thought November was like AIDS month, at least it was when I was a little kid growing up and we had to wear red ribbons for some unknown reason.

first time seeing Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (1953). Not much of a musical, and the message is most objectionable, "diamonds are a girl's best friend" and all that frivolous nonsense. Not much has changed in 50 years, and girls still idolize idiots like Marilyn and Audrey. Yet, I can watch Stupid and Legs jiggle and boun...ce for 90 minutes. You know ( Read more... )

up all night watching old episodes of Conan. The halcyon days of Conan, Andy, and Max (1993-2000). Max won't be returning to the new show, but his band will. Andy, still in an announcer role but hopefully he takes the sofa again like he did at the end of the Tonight Show. Still, the boys in their prime will never be matched. Not even Carson and ( Read more... )

You're out of the woods, You're out of the dark, You're out of the night
Step into the sun, Step into the light.

Tomorrow's my first day working in 2 months! Hope this job lasts!

[March up to the gate and bid it open]

September here again, the birthday month for me, and in a few days I turn over another decade full of sadness and loneliness. I think back to the one girl who has dominated my life for the past 10 years. I remember being 20, and knowing I hadn't been loved. I remember thinking it would always be like this, it'd be the same as it was ages 10-20. How ( Read more... )

the fact is i'll be alone when i turn 30, no different than any other year, minus one. im okay with it, there shouldnt be too many after this anyway.

Never done that before. Today was the first time in maybe 8 years that I took more than one stacker pill per day, and when lifting I HULKED out. I guess my Tri's came in from last week. My usual 225 set on bench felt like pushups, like I could do them all day. I racked some machines I've never even got off the ground, some I never attempted. I was ( Read more... )