Didn't eat today, haven't had any money in about 2 weeks or so. luckily Kenneth had a BBQ yesterday, him and his sister Kimmie. I didn't bring anything as expected. I ate well though. Steak and brats and pasta, first piece of meat I've had in weeks, maybe all month. It's hard to sleep on an empty stomach. It's harder to sleep when every thought in ( Read more... )

I'm watching that no-boobed girl from the Pirates movies in what I think is King Arthur, a movie that came out some years back. It's pretty stupid, but it made me think of human history. A history of murders. Over land, or faith, or power, or whatever. All history is defined by murders. Even before we were humans it was one species taking over ( Read more... )

I have to get to bed because tomorrow is another day I drop off resumes and shake hands and before I do all that, I need to call people back about the ones I have out there. I had a follow-up interview today at Payless Shoes. One step closer to the worst possible job of all, women's shoe salesman. For 10-15 hours a week, single digit pay per hour. ( Read more... )

Although, every night I find myself more and more like poor Raskolnikov, poor in health and spirit; not thin like Rodya but wasting away. I'm really thinking about a lot of things. I can't get my mind off the kitchen knives, or driving down to the beach right now as the sun rises and doing away with it. I won't, today, at least I'm quite sure I ( Read more... )

In thy orisons, be all my sins forgiven.

 I had an great time with my roommates! Jamie offered to have me over for Christmas since Abe & Riley were going, and at the last minute I said yeah. All drove up to Rowland Heights, south L.A. We had Christmas dinner with all the trimmings, I slept like a baby on this big plush bed, and Sophia & Jon even dropped by, and a Goth couple! Jamie's dad ( Read more... )

The Star Wars Holiday Special ( Read more... )

my life ending, that is, will be that I never, never got to make sweet love to a girl/woman to some sexy ass early 90s RnB. Something I totally wanted to do. Or even basking in the afterglow to love songs, like the ones I listened to in my adolescence, KOST 103.5 - love songs all night long. I just wonder what that must be like. I also always ( Read more... )

FTL - I get all polished off for a management interview at some mysterious company in Mira Mesa, portfolio squared away and everything seems to be in the right place. The only thing I forget? The building number of the place. Didn't help that I was early (not early enough to drive back home and get it). Called so many times and no one picked up. ( Read more... )

Friday I received a call from a company called Sear-Whittinghill. I didn't get the name right. I've looked them up online and I can't find anything. Anyway, they ask me to come in for an interview for a manager position at some business. Dunno what kind of business. They said they found my resume online. Probably off of monster.com. I didn't put ( Read more... )