Subterranean Jungle (1983)

Mar 28, 2006 01:49

Somehow, this turned into a fucking long entry with a lot of rambling and unfinished thoughts. Guess I'm tired.

Fuck it. )

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life_in_stereo_ March 28 2006, 07:00:56 UTC
I think I'm in love.

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subtle_as_glass March 28 2006, 07:07:17 UTC
I won't tell your girlfriend.

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life_in_stereo_ March 28 2006, 07:12:49 UTC
All those nights in the backroom...

with the cd repair machine.

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subtle_as_glass March 28 2006, 07:16:02 UTC
You know how that thing starts to vibrate when it gets going.

And check the schedule, plenty more late nights to come.

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intoinfinity March 28 2006, 07:16:00 UTC
The familiar might be something worth keeping, sometimes. The security is addictive. Still, venturing into the unknown only leaves place for growth, because it is the adjustments to the unknown that feed the dormant seeds of hidden talent.

It is one thing to subconsciously sabotage oneself. Yet once that is known, it is up to you to figure out how to consciously defeat it. The nice thing about life is that you have your entire lifetime to do so.

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subtle_as_glass March 28 2006, 07:24:54 UTC
I wouldn't go so far as to call it security, but certainly comfort. To be honest, I don't have much of a problem with it. I really am comfortable, and things are working for me. But as Bob Dylan said best 'He not busy being born is busy dying.' which makes me think that at this rate, stagnation is inneviatable. But at the same time, I'm reluctant to head off this stagnation now, as I'm comfortable, which is a hard state for me to achieve.

The first step to fixing a problem is recognizing it, eh? Around here, the rest of your life could be tomorrow though.

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intoinfinity March 28 2006, 07:29:49 UTC
Comfort and security oft go hand in hand. Both are relative. Stagnation is an inevitable part of being comfortable, one must simply accept that. So long as you are content with the choices you made; it is your life to live, after all.

To misquote what Death once said to the baby who cried that he hadn't enough time alive, "You got exactly the same amount of time everybody got: a lifetime."

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subtle_as_glass March 31 2006, 04:38:41 UTC
I like that story, I'm going to keep that in mind.

I've never found the two to work out at the same time, though I do understand the logic and why most people would. I suppose stagnation is just a bridge I'll cross when I get to it. My concern is that I'll be too comfortable to recognize it when I slip. Or too comfortable to do anything about it. But regardless, it will always be a conscious choice on my part, I'm well aware of my level of responsibility in my reality.

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society_failed March 28 2006, 07:16:49 UTC
Escape is complicated.

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subtle_as_glass March 28 2006, 07:26:53 UTC
Everything is complicated when you look at the macroscope of it. Simplicity is achieved in breaking it down to steps and stages, to plans.

Escape isn't complicated at all, its the letting go of what's tying to to something that is.

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society_failed March 28 2006, 22:35:32 UTC
I find simplicity in moments. Stuttered gasps of knowing.

"Letting go" is an escape in and of itself. Occasionally not a welcome one. How does one escape the process of escaping? Is there fate and is it really escapable then at all?

Keep planning, Temari.

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subtle_as_glass March 31 2006, 04:48:41 UTC
A moment is generally the lowest common denominator, as such, existence in it's simplest form. Its the basis behind the 'one step at a time' mentality/mantra, moving from moment to moment and only acknowledging the distance crossed in hindsight.

I don't believe in fate. We're all organic mechanisms spasming through our functions, our apparent consciousness a fluke of chemical interaction, our very existence a random by-product of collision. There is nothing larger, nothing more and certainly no point or masterplan. The choices we make are eventually completely inconsequential, it is only our supposed consciousness that attaches them any meaning of reprocusion. People chose to act, people chose to react, and people chose to decide what matters. The vast delusion we all consciously accept and trap ourselves in.

All the plans in the world are wothless without action, Neji.

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right_shard March 28 2006, 07:30:54 UTC
Music is the one thing I could think of that's worthwhile to burn your life away for.

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subtle_as_glass March 28 2006, 07:34:04 UTC
Is it really burning it away if you feel its worthwhile?

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right_shard March 28 2006, 07:36:47 UTC
I suppose that would be living it up, instead.

Burning just sounds better. ♥

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subtle_as_glass March 31 2006, 04:53:23 UTC
Burning sounds like a waste.

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dramabunny March 28 2006, 18:07:40 UTC
No. You're not like the Ramones, at all. Not that I consider their situation, as described, to be anything close to the ideal - but they were creating. Throughout history people have suffered in order to create - from the cliche of the penniless artist in his garrison flat starving in order to buy oils to the dancers who end up lame before they reach middle age just to reach the perfect point, to the Ramones who put themselves second to the music. Creating is like that, now and then, when it surpasses a vocation and becomes a need.

Creation and stagnation are very, very different. You're holding yourself up to a bad example, they weren't numb - clearly they were very much alive and fighting to the end. You're talking about giving up.

I can understand growing numb in the face of inevitability, when acceptance is all that fate allows. Better that than to waste tears.

I can understand that the ties of responsibility and duty come first, and are hard to break.

But bowing to your own inevitabliity and creating your own ties is ( ... )

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