new scars
for my birthday
i wanted someone
to have a party for me
stupid me

i was never special....

sophisticated failure ( Read more... )

i watch
you watch me,,

i hate you more...

you breathe
the correct
quotations

living is
my only habit

life was over
before i screamed

empty was
my free death

and we spinned
and we won 'alive'

hummm

i'm dead...
i looked up
and knew we
were never fooled

fuck me for smiling when i never meant it....rainer maria...gave me free cd's ( Read more... )

happy birthday Carla and Paul ( Read more... )

blame was my blanket
words were wool
blood is the moon
pain is hollow

The sun was never yellow ( Read more... )

My shadow
is swollen

the vibrations
glow
violently

it retracts
then imitates
birth

trying
to be foul

trying
to be fake

building
riots in my scars

so i sway
like life

never dying

giving in

life molded
me

Into this

i don't know what years
that could compete with
your laughter....

i couldn't die
I hate that i don't know
what am I....

'blow up this doll'

'cheers darling'...
someone save me....
i died.....you took me home....
we were alone...

save me....

save me...

'what am i '

'i'll be waiting for you to save me'

"no"

'don't let me go'

"i didn't think so"