Even though I was really manic tonight, the ending of it was perfect. We shared our true emotions. It made me feel like we were the only two people in the world, as corny as that sounds. I'm so excited for tomorrow. I know you don't beileve me, but you are the only boy I'll ever want. As much as you piss me off. I'm gonna act like a little house ( Read more... )

I hate that I fuckin' open up and all I get in return is insensitivity. I share my fears and doubts and hopes and all I get is a "bummer".

Eat shit. 

You think it could never happen to you. It does. Anything is possible. Life has strange occurances. But I guess they are all learning experiences. Every bad situation is supposed to be uplifting and show you right from wrong.

I'm in a strange mood. Maybe it's the Velvet Underground. It makes me feel in the seventies. It makes me feel euraphoric.

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 I feel inadequate. As if nothing I do is to any benefit to anyone. I'm just here to exist. Do what I'm told. Don't be a neusance. Take everyone's shit ( Read more... )

I got arrested last week. Haha. Guess what it was for? SHOPLIFTING. It was inevitable that it was going to happen some day. It was an awesome streak though. My whole wardrobe/make up/accessories are pretty much stolen. I also started that job. It's pretty cool. I make a lot of money pretty much sitting on my ass all day. Haha, that's lazy me. I had ( Read more... )

I WANT TO SEE BEN. JEESE LOUISE. IF I DON'T SEE HIM SOON MY HEART IS GOING TO EXPLODE. I want to kiss him, and touch him, and just be completely content.

I start work tomorrow. I'm pretty hungry. I'm gonna go get some food and paint my nailz. Peace. 

I got a job! Fuckin' finally. Somewhere that will hire me. I got it at a salon in Kennett Square. I'm really excited. I've decided I'm going to go to school for hair, and that will really look good on resumes. But besides that, I'm working on school shit.

Today is really pretty. I should get some film and take pictures. I have one more picture left ( Read more... )

I hate that I can't just stay happy for one fucking day. I'll be fine, and by the end of the day, I get antisocial and just feel alone. Fuck disorders. I want to be cured. There is no cure for me. I could be given everything in the world and I would still feel like shit. I'm just waiting to explode. I guess I have to live with this ( Read more... )

I'm trying to find some good albums to download. Today I have found some but when I try to do the google pirating the file isn't found on the computer or is for macs so it won't fuckin' play. I hope Hex; Or Printing in the Infernal Method works. Earth is great. I love listening to them on the train with Ben. I just want to hold him. He doesn't ( Read more... )

So homebound is pretty cool. I don't really do anything. Hopefully my mind won't go to waste. But anyway, tonight I think I'm goin' to a party, which would be fun because I haven't been to one in a while. Which is strange, 'cause I used to be a party animaaaaaaaallllllll. I should be taking a shower and cleaning, but I'm procrastinating ( Read more... )