The world is scarey.

Today was the first time I had butterflies in so long. You are right, it will be better this time. We did need this. We are beautiful. I love you. <3

 I listen to it over and over and over and over again. I feel so sick. I want to go to a field and just fucking scream.

I miss you.

In an abandoned house but I will wait there.
I'll be waiting forever...
I'll wait and wait and wait...
Minerals, ice deposits daily, dropped off
the first shiny robe.
Ive got a lot of things I want to sell, but
Not here, babe-- tortuuurreeee.
Every time I sit around I find I'm shot.
Every time I sit around I find I'm shot.
Every time I turn around I find I' ( Read more... )

My insides and insecurities are starting to bust out of my seems. The confidence has left me. I am now feeling lonely and horrid more than ever before. I don't know what has been making me feel this way. Actually, I kind of do ( Read more... )

It's as if you're my life jacket in treturous waters; you're keeping me afloat.
Afloat in this grim, dull world we have ourselves in,

But at the same time you're my poison. I yearn for your attention,
but when you shoot me down I go that much closer.

I guess I'm just an insecure lady. I want to have my shit down. I want to be in control again. I want ( Read more... )

 If any of you actually read my posts, I doubt you do, I only write here to bitch. So if it sounds like that's all I do, it's because this is simply made for it ( Read more... )

My nerves are taut. My will is taut.
Shall I go on? Walking on a tight rope.
That's how I feel my life has become.
Once I'm half way there, I fall.
Or I'm being held back.
The consequences are endless.

When I was on the bus today I noticed how many people that the "normal society" would call crazy. There were many. That I thought about myself. Maybe we' ( Read more... )

Some people might see this as selfish, that I expect some appreciation in return, but I honestly don't give a shit. This is what I need, and how I perceive a friendship to be, and if you have a problem with it, then suck a dick. I have seriously given you support with pretty much every bad situation you have been in. Who was constantly there when ( Read more... )

You're mean to me ( Read more... )