me and alicia had a vegetarian picnic, with tofu sushi and tofu spreads and pita bread and rice crackers and baby carrots and tzatziki and cherries and dried apricots and mini powdered donuts. we fed ducks and took psychedelic pictures by putting my red-tinted heart-shaped sunglasses infront of the lens when i noticed how pretty they made the world ( Read more... )

i like climbing fences and admiring the bruises that follow ( Read more... )

Joey Comeau said 'Hi.' to me ( Read more... )

{silly girl, get it in your head that life has barely begun ( Read more... )

there's really no point pretending my life has ever been any better or any worse because no matter how happy i am in general the fact remains that two out of three days i wake up with this horrible feeling of emptiness, and i wake up hating myself. it feels like waking up hungry, only my stomach is full and only my head and heart and whatever it is ( Read more... )

it's been interesting to find out what it takes to keep breathing.
at least i've had nice things to do, and friends and beer and carnival rides for sanity.

( carnival lights )

today was nice. my friends and their awkward teenage relationships and such cuteness were endearing. tomorrow is my last exam, science. i am amazed to find i do not think i have failed any this term ( Read more... )

i want to run away to somewhere far and hot and loud
people walking in the street will wear bright colors
kick up the dust with their feet
and sharp sounds will drive you from my thoughts

you used to say you would run away anywhere with me,
so let's put mountains between us.

i want to never miss anyone. i feel i need some way to protect myself. i can't believe what i have been going through these past few months, and i never want to be hurt this badly again.
i am trying not to want you back. i am trying to feel only indifference and disgust towards you, not betrayal and the loss of what i loved most in the world.

i ( Read more... )

barefeet walking along hot sidewalks, cement glittering like millions of shards of shattered glass.
every breath is waiting but you are not coming back come back come back, i ( Read more... )