lowest weight recently - 51 ( Read more... )

today started badly with a giant cookie time for breakfast... i couldnt believe i let myself have it... anyway luckily i managed to control myself until dinner which NEVER happens when i eat breakfast. i took no food to school which is always effective and then i had choir practise and went shopping after school so when i got home it was like 6:30 ( Read more... )

finally have reached my first goal weight. 52 (114). im happy but still not content with my body. my next goal is 50 (110) and then ultimately 48 (105). i will keep working hard.

birthday dinner: 3 peices of pizza and a slice of cake
i want to purge but my fam is in the next room
im shaking
can't stand the thought of all those calories in me
fuck

i've been constantly thinking about food all day. i find it hard to concerntrate on anything else. i just ate half a lollipop without even considering the calorie content. i can't believe i'd be so reckless. i feel fat. there is no other way to describe it. it was my sisters birthday today so tonight we'll be having pizza and cake... the two things ( Read more... )

things are nightmarish fat-wise at the moment. i feel huge. i hate dinner time. there's no way i can avoid eating without raising suspicion. i have decided to need to purge. i don't know how to do it. previous attempts haven't worked. if anyone actually reads this please tell me how! im desperate. i can't take this body much longer.

ok i so don't understand how this works. the whole weekend i ate like a total pig like the whole breakfast lunch and dinner with snacks in between - and not healthy fat-free choices either... however luckily i think it might have given my metabolism the stuff it needed because today - after nothing but a berocca and 5 spoons of low-fat yoghurt i'm ( Read more... )

ok so i haven't lost any weight according to the scales but it will probably be different in the morning, regardless i have had a very successful fasting day (in my book ( Read more... )

ok so fasting didnt happen. i set out with good intentions but the mcdonalds in the morning certainly wasn't a great start to my day. all went down hill from there. i even had no time at lunchtime or morning tea and yet still managed to eat fucken heaps. the excuse was right there on my platter (excuse pun) and i ignored it completely. this diet ( Read more... )

hey pro-ana random friend add-ees... i found y'all randomly cos im in need of some thinspiration and the whole pro-ana/mia movement really interests me... sorry if been randomly added to my thingy is not cool message me and i'll delete y'all.