"Something has changed within me. Something is not the same."

PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER.

It will not always be about the pain. I promised to not dwell. I exist between the poles of emotions and this is not an adequate representation of my life as it stands. It's not always fierce longing or harrowing dejection or something as equally haunting. I'm a wider range and a few extremes all at once. No. Forget that. I don't know what I ( Read more... )

It'll never rain again if I lose you.

I feel an almost constant prodding to continue to update, so, I shall try, but, in all fairness, I am in no way coherent these days and trying to string together any and all of what I've been feeling may be nigh impossible. Perhaps I shall make a list of the current things I am feeling, and see where that leads me ( Read more... )

WOW.

quick shot to the gut
collapse, clutch stomach
keep eyes closed
don't move, it's better when you're still
minimizes the reverberation that
impact pain causes

i will not have this turned into
the most futile effort of my life

So don't tell me why he's never been good to you
So don't tell me why he's never been there for you.
Don't you know that why is simply not good enough?
Oh, so just let me try, and I will be good to you.
Just let me try and I will be there for you.
I'll show you why you're so much more than good enough.

The things we do, I'm tellin' ya.

I'm thinking about you. Just a reminder, lest you forget.

Another dream, my love? This is becoming far more serious than I originally believed. In this one, you were picking me up and I was on the phone and I moved to kiss your forehead, only you moved at the same time and our lips met and I became flushed and distracted and said that I had to go, at which point, I hung up. I woke up then, every ( Read more... )

mourning ( Read more... )

Daniel was here. It's even intense to see written out. He was here. He was at my house, asleep in my bed downstairs, fixing his hair in my bathroom, reading through my books...incredible. Seeing him was the most unexpected and breathtaking homecoming - truly, I didn't know I could feel so relaxed, so whole, until he stood on my front porch. ( Read more... )