i got drunk and went to the beach. laying in the sand looking up at these bright bright stars and amazing clouds. i had a feeling that i never felt. i felt beautiful and that everything around me was beautiful. and i want to lay there forever. i want to sleep on the beach and wake up to the warm sun on my face. i wanted every moment to be as care ( Read more... )

i found myself driving home from beachside. remembering how a year ago wasnt far off from my current situations. me being forced to go home and sleep in my cold lonely bed when all i wanted was to sleep next to him. next to someone. i saw the lights on at summerset as i creeped down desoto at a mere 25 mph and entertained the idea of just showing ( Read more... )

i dont remember what i was talking about but i said something to my dad and he got really excited and blurted out "wicked!".... i thought i was gonna die of laughter. my dad is the coolest. me and him need to hangout more. i wish he had been around more when i was younger.

well my brother bailed on me for the damien jurado show tonight so derek suggested that i call up damien because he said he was going and maybe i could go with him. damien playfully tells me off saying i should mind my own business. further into our conversation he informs me that he is waiting for jason choi to call him back and then he will call ( Read more... )

restless, still here singing in the distance and its getting to me so dont bring it up waiting for the message to keep moving cause im dying here in the lock groove again is this the wrong way to go looking for a sign to get off this road cause someone once told me. if there a road to happiness i must have passed it long ago. whirlwind, yea im back ( Read more... )

some conversations are ment to be kept secret.
some conversations make me laugh so hard that i cant write about it.
and some conversations are both.

yesterday was awful. i was sicker than i think ive ever been. my allergies had my head all congested and body sore. my migraine had my head feeling like it was going to explode. it was so bad that everytime i moved i felt like i was going to puke. i wanted to go to work so bad. so i dressed myself very slowly. making sure not to make any sudden ( Read more... )

I remember laying under your computer desk. Too numb to cry. Holding a conversation with you in my head. And this is what I said ( Read more... )

ive been finding myself cutting off my emotions lately. im almost in shock. its just a numbing feeling ( Read more... )

i went out ( Read more... )