well its beem like 3 months since i've updated and thats always a cool thing. actually ive been to busy to take time out of my life to sit in front of a computer .. anyways...its spring break.. and almost the end of the school year which is an exciting but scary thing..next year its off to santa barbara and i am definently stoked for that. for my ( Read more... )

I reallly cant believe that christmas has passed. it seems like everything is just flying buy. my dad got a new boat for christmas from my step mom.. a lot bigger than our old one so right on for lake parties this summer ( Read more... )

Sooo i went ahead and got a tattoo. its really cool. its on my hip and its two musical notes with a hot pink banner going through them. pretty fucking rad. and its didnt hurt too bad..

i had a very interesting weekend lets see friday it was my stepmoms birthday and we got drunk and someone threw up on me in my bed when i was sleeping (we wont mention names) it was so gross. i am still totally fucking grossed out. good thing steph my step mom and my dad came to the rescue. i love them. anyways michael called and said he called ( Read more... )

i think all i will do in this entry is complain. since it seems to irratate "somebody" who is too fucking pussy to not say there real name. yea fuck that. in case you havnt noticed all anyone EVER does on this stupid shit is COMPLAIN. so get with it dumbass. and if it bothers you soo much than dont read my shit bitch. if anyone has a problem with ( Read more... )

so i got Michael a job back here in good old Salinas , making way more money than he would have been making in Arizona ..so its good because he will be closer and will be making more money. only downside; is having to say goodbye again when he does decide to leave ( Read more... )

it has been 3 days since michael moved to Arizona and already it feels like a lifetime has gone by. having to say goodbye to someone that i very well could be in love with was the most DIFFICULT thing i have ever had to do. but i guess that goes without saying ( Read more... )

The grey ceiling on the earth ( Read more... )

i dont know if anyone ever really reads any of these entries. but i hope some people read this one. well me and michael are over as far as relationships go. he gave me a Cop out excuse of that if he leaves he doesnt want to break my heart. or whatever. i mean i guess he must think i am a dumbass because i dont believe him for one second. i guess it ( Read more... )

i need some closure and i need some cheering up and i need to know how he feels so i can know how i should feel.
i want to run and hide.