It is 5:00 am and I can not sleep. Too much is going on in my personal life, my job, with friends, with my State and my government. I wish that I could just take a vacation from life itself. I am tired of so many people in pain. I want to be part of the world which is the solution and not part of the problem. To do something about the despair ( Read more... )

I am so angry. I have medical insurance, through my job, the company has gotten us cheaper policies each year. Now I am to pay $30.00 per appointment, which hurt but was managable. Last month I had to go to the emergency room, which turned out to be appendicitis, now I have a bill for $550.00. When I called my company to find out if this was a ( Read more... )

It has been one of those months when nothing seems to go the way it should, events are a mixture of good and bad. July 3, 2003 I had my appendix out. And an unscheduled six weeks on disability. Friends rallied to make sure I had what was needed, since the hospital threw me out on July 4, 2003, at 11 a.m. A good friend stayed with me for a week ( Read more... )

Such a mixed time. Mouse's death saddens me, yet I had a great weekend. Being in the country was very special. Although I consider myself a city girl, being among trees, my ears not being battered by sirens, cars , buses, and other sounds of the City, is quite refreshing. The smells and sounds of the country are so different, and yet so ( Read more... )

It has been an amazing day. I saw my therapist, nothing generally happened basically it was catch up time since I had not seen her in over a month and since then moved. But it was shocking how much has changed since I last saw her. Other than moving, most of the changes are internal. I feel happier than I remember being in my life. I still can ( Read more... )

I work as a security guard, and last night I again came upon a homeless person sleeping on our property. This particular one is a regular. I know his cycles. He will be arrested and taken to the local mental health institute, and come out totally drugged, and docile. Not exactly the condition you want to be if you are trying to survive on the ( Read more... )

Sometimes you can go through life automatically, then there are other times when nothing seems familiar. Since the beginning of the year, I have lived in three different places, due to being diagnosed with a precancer condition. Luckily that is in the past, I am now considered cancer free. But it has left my life not so automatic. Now ( Read more... )

This is my first entry, so please excuse any mistakes I might make. My autobiography is vague because I am more than the events in my life. I have Brightmane standing over me instructing me on how this all works, so I am not unrestricted, at this time. Since I have a guest I being a bad hostess playing on livejournal making my guest get their ( Read more... )