I don't know even know who's even on here anymore but I guess that's less the point. I've been reading through older posts of mine. And let me just say, I'm so happy that this has stayed up to let me relapse into my old musings and interactions with people. It gives me an eery insight into who I used to be and what I thought I stood for. Its ( Read more... )

Its funny how you can know someone for so long and have them be such a part of you and everything in your life that every time you talk to them there is nothing but pure shame wrapped in annoyance/anger over the smallest thing. That there is this fucking ridiculous barrier of past and present shit that you can't sort through to get back to the ( Read more... )

So the sun is up and I'm drunk. I realize that there is something wrong with this because I'm trying to hide it from my roomates. If your guilty drinking early in the evening by yourself you might have some sort of something going on inside. I guess the problem for me is that I can't figure out what the hell is wrong with me. I mean, I have alot of ( Read more... )

I'm sick of laying in bed. I hate not being able to do things for myself or being able to be mobile at all. I thought things were kind of shitty before but this has given me a better perspective of things I think. I say that now but I might be whining again in a few weeks. I'm still waiting on the appraisal guy to come check out my motorcycle. I ( Read more... )

IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST,
Iwant to know 28 things about you.I don't care if we've never talked,never liked each other, or if we already know everything about eachother. I really don't. You are obviously on my list, so let me knowwith whom I am friends!

1.Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite ( Read more... )

Fuck myself for being weak ( Read more... )

So I'm 26 and still feeling like I'm much younger in my outlook on the world and my life ahead of me. I always feel like I'm waiting for something. Not that I'm necessarily expecting something to be handed to me, just not knowing what to do because I don't know what I even want. I should be on top of this by now. Whenever I think of going to school ( Read more... )

So I have no idea where I am going in life right now. With that said, I'm sure the rest of this post will be boring and will make no sense. I am torn in between staying in Kansas City where it is comfortable/uncomfortable, moving back to Orlando, and moving to Chicago to take a huge chance. I feel like I've subconsciously bought into all the movie/ ( Read more... )

But yet I'm happy to watch the news and realize that I don't have it so bad with the lack of religious genocide and such...I like making people laugh, as lame as it may seem. I think that is one of the only things that makes life fun to me. I waste my time every day in work doing things that insult what little bit of intelligence I have on bland ( Read more... )

Fucking kickboxing training is sucking my will to live. I can't drink the sweet nector of alcohol like I used to. I actually don't even think I'm supposed to be drinking at all. Ah....eh....oh well. Builds character. Life is pretty much a blur of work and training. Nothing really of any consequence or interest to rant ignorantly about. Hopefully I' ( Read more... )