I'm sorry I couldnt be everything you ever wanted. I tried... I really did. I'm sorry things have gone this way. If I could change things I would. I'm sorry I couldnt be perfect. Then again no one really is are they? I'm sorry I cared too much. I'm sorry that everytime I saw you I got butterflys. I'm sorry you made me so happy. I'm sorry I ( Read more... )

So... what have I been up to? There's alot going on right now. And honestly... im scared. I am afraid of what could happen. And I am totally on my own this time. I cant even pretend that ..someone.. is at least thinking about me.... because I know its not happening. I dont know where things went wrong, but I think I lost a friend this week ( Read more... )

Except I feel really lost and confused. I've completly screwed up this time and im an idiot ( Read more... )

FUUUCK!!! why do I always screw things up?

I think theres a few people who are a little upset with me and im not sure why..... On a good note I had a wonderful weekend. I got a little ummm.... stupid? but thats ok. Details later. i gotta go to work.

Not gonna lie... about 5 hours ago I was a bit tipsy. I had a good night though. its almost 6am and I just got home. Im going to bed now. good night.

So.... today has been crap but im not letting it get me down. at least right now. I feel strong. I worked at petco and sears today so it was a long day. I didnt have time to eat so of course I was sick while at sears. This morning something happened with the hair straightner..... I burn my hair badly. Im working on it right now. I got some ( Read more... )

Today was great.... Till it fell apart. Pretty much my night sucked. I managed to piss off people who mean the most to me and my parents. How....im not sure. I would guess with my stupidity. Now on the other hand my dad pushed me overboard. Im not going into it. But i had a breakdown and cried so much that my eyes were swollen almost shut, ( Read more... )

Well..... It has been a long time since Ive updated this thingy here. And im trying not to abuse my myspace blogs with my complaining and venting and crying.... and I shall try to do the same with good old LJ. This past week was fun. A few friends were home for Spring Break and I think I got to see everyone except Mark. Thats his fault for not ( Read more... )

After all the cleaning and the getting yelled at was done and over with... I had a fun nite. Thank you. =) Now i must sleep because I work all day at sears pretty much. Good night.