So... yea... the subject explains it all. I've been in a strange mood. not happy.... but not sad. Today I had a good day besides not going to the gym because of the ice storm. I feel lazy and fat when I dont go. But i didnt want to drive in the ice. I guess someone came into work looking for me the other day. I have a feeling I know who it ( Read more... )

It's crazy.... but its true.

the end.

<3

Please... can one more thing in my life get effed up???? Its like... i get soooo close then have it snatched away. I dont even know why i bother doing anything anymore. it gets me nowhere. I get my hopes up and i get excited like maybe this is my break I have been waiting for... them POOF!! haha Sue you suck and this and that and everything. ( Read more... )

then do it...
the end

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happy valentine's day

i love you.

=)

Myspace is pissing me off. Well....maybe not but its irritating me. The only pages it will let me see is Dan's, Pete's, and Every Avenue. And its not playing the song on my page. That makes me sad because i really like this song and band. oh well. maybe it will work later. Its gym time. I have like 20 more pounds to go. Maybe then i will ( Read more... )

*****If i said I love you would you believe me?*****

i dont feel good. Physicly and emotionaly. Somethings just not right. I need to fix it.

I had a breakdown at my mom's house tonight. Ive been doing so good latley too. I was just sitting there and i got really really sad.... and my mom could tell.... she asked what was wrong and I said I was fine and changed the subject. She was on the phone with my step dad. Then she came over and sat next to me and hugged me and I started ( Read more... )

I enjoy going to the gym. Expecally today and thursday. I take my anger out on myself while im there and work even harder. Its paying off. I can already tell. And I am now 168. I know i still have a ways to go but im getting there. Maybe someday someone will thinking im beautiful.... i just have to keep working to get there ( Read more... )

You make me effin sick. Have a nice day. =)