Lose another 20-25 pounds....im joining another gym thursday....last night someone said i need to workout. Thanks..... but i know already ( Read more... )

Its 2:00am and I just got home from Steph's. We rented "Bring It On." Haha... It was a good time. And I needed that. I've been getting down on myself alot latley and it was nice to just relax. I'm trying to enjoy what I havent lost yet. Its hard though because im always reminded of whats already passed me by. I need to work harder to make ( Read more... )

I dont understand. I want to say sooo much but do I say anything.....no. I dont tell people how I feel.... I try not to show emotion. I dont let myself cry unless I am alone. I want to say things but I dont because I dont want to hurt anyone or scare anyone. I want to yell and scream it at the top of my lungs.... but even then I dont think ( Read more... )

There's so much I want to say
But i dont let a word out.
I keep it all inside my head.
I could write a movie with the way I imagion things working out and unfolding.
Lifes not always like the movies.
But if things worked out the way they are in "my movie,"
it would be the best movie ever made.

<3

Tonight dan and I finally exchanged gifts. Im glad I got that mini fridge out of here. haha. it was taking up too much room by the stairs. We went and saw "the lion, the witch and the wardrob" tonight. I have been sooo excited about it!!! It was reall really really good. I would go see it again. After the movie we let someone's dogs outside ( Read more... )

Hello journal.... I have missed you. And im sure you've missed me. I am doing alot better now. I still feel lost and empty but im not crying anymore. I think hanging out with Pete on Christmas nite helped. He knows how I feel. It was pretty random. But im glad we hung out. It was good times. I need to not be so shy though. Lighten up eh ( Read more... )

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Last night.... I went outside. It was snowing. The flakes were huge. I watched the snow and thought of you.

Its ok.... I didnt expect you or anyone to understand. Supportive of my desisions would have been nice but its ok that you dont. But whatever. If I eff up my life its my fault and no one else's so please dont stop me. Please dont try to change my mind. I'm stubborn and probably wont listen. Its time for me to stop caring.... And its hard but ( Read more... )

There's things I want to say..... but I wont ( Read more... )